LIZZIE138
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Saturday, October 29, 2016

have been real downers lately. I am truly sorry about that. There is just so many stressful things going on in my life as of late that I took a step back to analyse why this part of me comes out here of all places. This is what I discovered.

I have only a few close friends that I could share these feelings with and right now they too are going through similar things so I don't want to burden them with my woes.

My hubby is either all in supporting me or all out because he's had enough. Lately he has been all out. It's very difficult when the person closest to you doesn't really understand the emotional tie between my sister and myself. My parents are deceased along with my only brother and my closest aunt and uncle. So in my world, sis is all I have as REAL family besides my hubby. And the thought of losing her too overwhelms me.

So I come here to share (vent) my feelings because I won't feel judged that I'm doing the wrong thing, that I'm spending too much time with a loved one who can't make her own decisions right now. I'm just doing what I feel I have to do, what I want to do!

So thank you for putting up with my saga of woe right now. I know the situation will eventually resolve itself one way or the other.

Lizzie

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  • OVERDUECHANGE
    I understand how you feel. My husband knows my upbringing was pretty rough and I hold a lot of grudges against my mother and sister... but, I am still close with them. I don't care what he thinks about them, we HAVE been through so much together, and after my grandparents passed (they were the ones who really raised us), I feel more obligated to have patched up the relationships so they won't feel alone.
    556 days ago
  • BE-THE-CHANGE
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    596 days ago
  • NHES220
    Don' apologize because your blogs are what is going on in your life. Sorry to hear your sister is struggling and you really do not have anyone to share your struggles. I'm sure it is tough. We lost my Dad this year and my Mom is being evaluated for some health issues - but I have my sisters to work through things and my hubby, so I'm lucky. So continue to let us know what's going on, even though we can't help, we are listening.
    596 days ago
  • JAMER123
    I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I have my mother that has been a handful for me even though I have 2 brothers. They know how difficult it has been for me but are unable to help. After keeping her in our winter home for 5 months, we told her to either get back int other own home or go to assisted living because we can't keep letting her tell how when and where to go or do. She is a very independent 90 y/o that fell and broke and arm and leg and used everyone and everything she could. Even told her Dr. she is stubborn and bullheaded. So I understand the stress. God bless you for working so hard for your sister.
    597 days ago
  • DORHYGT
    Blessings to you and your family.
    597 days ago
  • KATRINAKAT23
    I usually come here to blog too when I am going through "stuff". I think it helps somewhat to get it out so don't feel bad. We all go through things at some time or another. emoticon
    597 days ago
  • SHAWFAN
    Don't worry about being "down" in your blogs. Sometimes these are just the thing to get the stress off your mind. I think a lot of us have been there, hun.
    I'm sorry and pray for you and your sister. God bless you both. Hope you find someone who will listen with support. emoticon
    597 days ago
  • MTN_KITTEN
    Share, share your feelings here. Do NOT eat them.

    Food never fixed anything ... but hunger.
    597 days ago
  • SHOCOSS
    Remember you are doing what you think is best, doing the best you can, with what you have at each moment with your sister. Prayers sent to you.
    597 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    I read your previous blogs from the past couple months to understand things a little.
    I do not know how old your sister is, but if she does not have dementia, she needs to realize that she is not being responsible about her lifestyle and living situation., She knows that she is letting you and your family be informed when she has attacks or falls. She also knows that assisted living is a better way to go than continuing to haul you out of bed when she is having a problem.
    My mother died in July, I know what I am saying, I also have a mentally ill sister who requires many, many things. there are so many resources out there for her that will let her live an independent life to a point and allow her to get immediate care.
    TAKE HER FOR A TOUR, sit her down and tell her that SHE has to make a change and do this for herself.

    I would imagine she has nothing to look forward to now and is just beside herself with depression and fear.

    Arrange a tour at some places to show her some new possibilities. Tell her you want her to enjoy whatever aspects of her life she can and maybe switch some medical caregivers too! One thing at a time..
    Praying she is open to your suggestions.
    597 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/2/2016 4:20:18 PM
  • SUSANYOUNGER
    My thoughts and prayers are with your sister and you.
    597 days ago
  • LARAYEH
    I know exactly how you feel. A nice walk with my music always helps me. I hope you see things start to improve real soon!
    597 days ago
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