Desperate Updated is needed!!!
Sunday, October 09, 2016
Wow! It has been a really long time since I have had a blog entry here! I have been using another online journaling tool and been absent here. I have finally gotten back to my pre-baby weight from Lady bug. It feels good to be there but I still have about 40 pounds that I would like to lose. So here we are again. I have been terrible with my eating and battling some job burnout. I am basically doing two peoples jobs both at work and at home.
I realized that the last time I blogged, my life was very different. The past two years (5 if I go all the way back) have had a great deal of challenges for me to overcome but I have and will continue to. My daughter was born in December of 2014 and was a wonderful blessing. I was active on here following that. Since then, I found out that my husband had multiple affairs and he did not want to change that. We have since divorced and I have been in recovery mode from that. I am finally in a place that I am feeling confident and accepting myself as I am. I realized that there was a great deal of emotional abuse going on from my husband and that has taken time to get over. I have put in a lot of work on myself and have even been going through a brain training program called "Insession" by Dr. Mcayla Sarno. It has been amazing. I am finally free of the emotional abuse and headed in a great direction.
My work life has become an overstressed mess, as many teachers experience. I am learning to cope with the stress and set boundaries. It has been a positive learning experience embedded into a difficult situation. 2015 was the absolute worst year of my life personally (with my marriage at least) and professionally. But I have learned who my real friends are and experienced the true and tangible love that God gives us as His children.
I have started many healthy habits to kick off my weight loss in hopes of actually getting to the root cause of the weight gain. I have been doing weekly challenges for myself again, meditation/visualization, relaxation yoga at bed time, drinking enough water, and running essential oils while I meditate and sleep. These are little things making a big difference. I am also finding more out about who I am and what I like. I have been enjoying walking on several of the beautiful trails that we have where I live and finding that I like hiking.
I have realized lately that if I listen to myself, my journey to health should nto be too bad. I like working out, particularly dance, yoga, pilates, and aerobics, I like eating plant based meals and I love water. So what has been my problem????? Here is to change and positive next steps!!!!
p.s. My goal is to be on here more and posting more about my journey