A letter to my body
Wednesday, October 05, 2016
What was I ever thinking? It's not as though I'm not well educated or intelligent or aware. Why see a nutritionist when I am a walking encyclopedia of what to eat and not eat. Why look up calories when I could look at any food and quote the exact calories, as well as other nutrition facts. I can't claim to have treated you like pure crap because i was ignorant or uninformed.
I had one body and only one body. I filled you with fat, sugar and salt. I had just a bite, then ate the whole thing, and since I'd already blown it, I ate my way through the kitchen like a crazy person. I watched you get big, then I worked hard until you got slim and fit, and then I watched you get big again. I managed to exercise control and good decisions in every part of my life but this one. Now I can't even climb two flights of steps without getting winded. The embarrassment.
I'm sorry to have abused you. Perhaps if I practice self-love again, I can stop this crazy cycle. Just don't give up on me yet.