After so many years of dieting, self flagellation and self shame, I think I have turned the corner.
Monday, September 26, 2016
It seems strange for it to be Sept. and to be planting squash, dill, and tomatoes.
Now in the 90's and even 80's. Night temps. also dropping.
One of the things I have come to terms with is that losing weight is not my ultimate goal. My ultimate goal is to live as healthy and happy as I can. For me that means eating healthy and exercising and stimulating my brain, doing things I enjoy. Live is too short to plan to do this or that when I get to some arbitrary number of the scale.
In 1 year from now what is the most important that that happened today or this week? That I did not have a piece of cake or that I made happy memories with people that matter to me?
Moderation is what I see as the key. There is no food group that is off limits. Knowing this does not make anything have the taboo allure.
No I don't to this perfectly. I have a problem eating in restaurants because what should be healthy choices are too often calorie bombs. I used to have a problem eating in restaurants because I felt people would judge me for eating. Now I feel it is non of their business and their problem if they want to judge.
Another challenge is night when I am tired or tired and bored. Am working on it and some days are on plan and some days aren't and that's also ok. I no longer have to be perfect.
Will I ever get back to 175 or lower? If I do that will be nice as will any progress towards that long term goal. In any case I am working at being as healthy at what ever weight I am at and that is really the best I can do.