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The Final Frontier

Sunday, September 25, 2016

It's hard to believe that we are well into fall at this point. Life seems to be moving faster than I'm used to. I guess that's a good thing though, it means I'm making progress.

A couple weeks ago I graduated from my eating disorder group. I had spent almost a year in the group and due to some changes it felt like it was the right time to leave. I feel no different today it was definitely something that I had moved on from. I remain thankful for what it taught me but it cleared enough space in my life to enter what I'm calling The Final Frontier. I've spent the last several years, four to be exact, working on many parts of my eating disorder but none of them had to do with eating. Now that I'm in a really good place in my life with those areas, I feel ready to tackle what ultimately will be the biggest challenge of my life: learning how to live and eat in moderation.

Going to be different this time. It has to be. It's going to be different because I'm actually asking for and accepting help this time around. I spent the majority of my life going at it alone and while I've gotten results in the past they've never been something I've been able to maintain. So I have a small army of supporters who believe that I can do this and are willing to come along for the ride.

I've spent the last several months working on my eating and have regularly started cooking at home again which is a big deal. I'm just beginning to incorporate movement again. Throwing achievement out the window, my motto is "just move". I'm also working very hard on setting the numbers aside, to the point where I've committed to only weigh myself in my dietitian's presence... and even then, I have decided I don't want to know the number. For now anyway. Numbers have historically derailed me and I don't want anything to come in the way of moving forward.

Onward.
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  • MOONFAIRY
    I'm very much at the same stage. I've been so fixated on hitting my macros, despite it being too much food (I work out a lot). I think I did more harm than good. My stomach is struggling to digest and my food just sits there when it should be cleared out. So as of today, I'm focusing on healing my stomach with juicing, bone broth, and staying away from my food sensitivities list as much as I can. Good luck to you!
    662 days ago
  • CAROKNITS
    I'm so delighted to see a post from you! I like your new motto ... Just move! Best wishes to you as you embark on the journey of this final frontier. emoticon
    665 days ago
  • MT-MOONCHASER
    I'm very glad to read that you are making progress. It is enlightening to find out why we behave as we do, and it gives us something to work with when we try to change our behaviors.

    It's good that you have assembled a team of helpers. It usually works better if we don't want to disappoint someone else. Why do we accept disappointing ourselves, but work to not disappoint others?? I guess when we find out the answer to that, we'll be well on our way to our goals.

    I wish you every success on your journey to better health and applaud the progress you have made in caring for yourself.

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    665 days ago
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