I am so frustrated! HELP ME! Tell me I'm doing the right thing, tell me it gets better, tell me I will see progress again.
Now I should probably preface this with the fact that I'm PMSing and I know that is probably playing a very big part of my feelings, but I need to get them out right now.
1. I'm having this awful thing happening in my belly button and I know it's because I'm obese and I'm mad about it. So caution, if you don't want to hear about a side effect of being obese skip to number 2, otherwise you've been warned. So I noticed awhile ago that my belly button had a strange odor, so I started cleaning it out and drying it out and it went away. But then, it came back and I must not be cleaning it enough or something cause it continues to clear up, and then come back, only worse. It hurts stinks and looks like pus. GROSS! I know. So I started googling (Ah the power of knowledge, a blessing and a curse) THE GOOGLE said it happens more to people who are obese especially people who are more active because sweat gets in there and causes an infection.....................
.. WAIT! So when I was fat and lazy I had no odor or infection, but because I'm trying to lose the belly, now I get an infection! THAT IS SO MESSED UP! So now I have to be hyper vigilant about putting hydrogen peroxide on it and Neosporin and if it doesn't get better, I have to go see a dr. ACK! NO FAIR!
2. I'm tired of this one part of my hips that sticks out further than the rest. Yes I know this is dumb, but when I look in the mirror it's all I can see. I even circled it below, you won't notice it but it was there at 375 and it's still there at 298. It makes me so self conscious, Will it always be there, will I always hate it?
3. Clothing I love wearing cute clothes and I've been having so much fun, but will my hips always be too big to fit the top appropriately? Today I had to wear a shirt and the shoulders were a good 3 inches down my arms and it's pulling at my hips. I don't like that the sleeves come down to my elbows. I have nice arms, I want to show them off!
4. THE STUPID DANG SCALE! I stood on it again today and I was up. I know it's bloating weight from my period, but I looked down at that WRETCHED number and wanted to scream! WHY WON'T YOU MOVE! What is wrong with me!
So here I am screaming to you looking for help, I don't know what to do. How do you handle this feeling of frustration and defeat!