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Tired of IT!

Monday, September 19, 2016

AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!

I am so frustrated! HELP ME! Tell me I'm doing the right thing, tell me it gets better, tell me I will see progress again.

Now I should probably preface this with the fact that I'm PMSing and I know that is probably playing a very big part of my feelings, but I need to get them out right now.

1. I'm having this awful thing happening in my belly button and I know it's because I'm obese and I'm mad about it. So caution, if you don't want to hear about a side effect of being obese skip to number 2, otherwise you've been warned. So I noticed awhile ago that my belly button had a strange odor, so I started cleaning it out and drying it out and it went away. But then, it came back and I must not be cleaning it enough or something cause it continues to clear up, and then come back, only worse. It hurts stinks and looks like pus. GROSS! I know. So I started googling (Ah the power of knowledge, a blessing and a curse) THE GOOGLE said it happens more to people who are obese especially people who are more active because sweat gets in there and causes an infection.....................
.. WAIT! So when I was fat and lazy I had no odor or infection, but because I'm trying to lose the belly, now I get an infection! THAT IS SO MESSED UP! So now I have to be hyper vigilant about putting hydrogen peroxide on it and Neosporin and if it doesn't get better, I have to go see a dr. ACK! NO FAIR!

2. I'm tired of this one part of my hips that sticks out further than the rest. Yes I know this is dumb, but when I look in the mirror it's all I can see. I even circled it below, you won't notice it but it was there at 375 and it's still there at 298. It makes me so self conscious, Will it always be there, will I always hate it?



3. Clothing I love wearing cute clothes and I've been having so much fun, but will my hips always be too big to fit the top appropriately? Today I had to wear a shirt and the shoulders were a good 3 inches down my arms and it's pulling at my hips. I don't like that the sleeves come down to my elbows. I have nice arms, I want to show them off!

4. THE STUPID DANG SCALE! I stood on it again today and I was up. I know it's bloating weight from my period, but I looked down at that WRETCHED number and wanted to scream! WHY WON'T YOU MOVE! What is wrong with me!

So here I am screaming to you looking for help, I don't know what to do. How do you handle this feeling of frustration and defeat!


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  • 2BDYNAMIC
    As others said .......hang in there and look at all the weight you have lost!!! .... emoticon ...Give yourself a break and ditch sabotaging thinking .........Yu deserve more ............I think enough peeps addressed the navel matter, so I won't chime in ............. DO stand with you and be kind and good to yourself and get your eyes off of what you think are flaws! Ok ? .........Promise? ........ emoticon
    1149 days ago
  • PROVERBS3128
    You are doing great! Don't forget, you most likely would have eaten all kinds of carbs so you would
    have felt better at this point, but you are venting to your friends instead of eating, isn't that a good sign?
    I find things get to me quicker, but then I realize how much I used food to soothe things over.
    Praying for you!
    1149 days ago
  • BONNIEMCC488
    So sorry! I'm PMSing too and while not on the same level as you, I can totally relate to all these things hitting you and sticking in your mind. I hope the belly button thing clears up and continues to stay clear, that sounds very frustrating. For now... emoticon and if you ever need to vent, feel free to send me a message or leave a comment on my page, or whatever :)
    1150 days ago
  • POSITIVEHOPE
    Okay, I lost 80 pounds had a regain and am back on the journey. Yes, the asymmetrical belly goes away. You can help disguise it on your way down. I wear a tummy control panty over my undies to hold in my belly. Yes, they come in large sizes like 6X. I like Flexiees brand available at JC Penney or Amazon. They are very comfortable and give you that uniform look that you desire. Give them a go!
    1150 days ago
  • POSITIVEHOPE
    Strangely enough, you need to Celebrate. Now, you think I'm nuts. Really, read my page blogs and secret to success.

    Celebration defeats fear, frustration and all the aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhssss. I'm serious. It works!
    1150 days ago
  • GBOOBOO1
    Sorry big finger syndromee. Peroxiding it first then applying cornstarch. This kills bacteria and dries it up.
    1150 days ago
  • GBOOBOO1
    I've had belly button issues too. What worked for me was peroxiding it first thrn spplyong
    1150 days ago
  • GBOOBOO1
    Quality decisions to improve ourselves are frustrating and hard but worth it.Stop beating yourself up.You are you worst enemy.Now be your best friend.Think why you started.Speak positively and be kind to you.Make plans, don't give up when you slip up
    1150 days ago
  • STORMJ0
    Use zinc oxide in your belly button. You cabn get it at the pharmacy under burn treatment or diaper rash
    1150 days ago
  • JLYNN559
    Hang in there..dont obsess with the scale. You are only defeated when u quit. But u still here. They didnt build rome in a day remember that. Be patient, gove urself a chance. 🙂
    1150 days ago
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