Yep yep - hooray. We're here!!
I heard a riff on an NPR comedy show (maybe Wait Wait?) about "musical chairs" being a frightening form of child abuse -- e.g. early training in S C A R C I T Y. And I laughed so loud, out loud. At how true that is. A childs game. Rush for what's left? What a nightmare when one looks at it like that. eh?
So what do I mean by this headline today?
I've been playing Musical Pages ONLINE with my identikit and weight loss "goals" and "tracking" and "community" WISHES. I joined WW and attend(ed) meetings. The "Smart Points system" just not working for my sanity. Calorie counting is saner for me. So after a year (omg, a year) I'm back to Spark Tracking ... but i have NO IDEA how to set my goals for weight loss.
It's as though someone has removed a 'chair' and I can't find a place to land.
I almost did that HCG crazy crash thing to - as they say - give myself a jump.
And wanting that sent me out of the room, off the deep end.... (which means that I had some old old not seen in eons acting out behavior as a rebound). Tick tock, pendulum swing.
I'm back in the saddle -- me and my turtle
What calorie amount should I aim for, given my lower starting weight (164 instead of 235)
What calorie amount should I aim for, given my still shameful(?) alarmingly low DailyStepCount?
What if I NEVER get my steps up?
Why is that my question?
Rowing is my new affection. 1000m in 6 minutes. Now I want to add minutes.
Yet-- I know that -- my friends who've made it to maintenance have ALL (without exception) evolved to be walkers or joggers . .. . in real time, real space, and even with other people as companions. So.... I chew on that. Some more.
Musical Pages -- I've sucked it up and don't hate the new Spark operating system. I accept it. I embrace it. I NEED SUCCESSFUL RESONATIONS and
Can Spark Still be My Home Base?
Is there a chair that suits my inner golilocks?
Will my friends join me here
or Music on Hold
It's a dance
It's a lark
What a piece of work is man/woman
I need ME to show up
for this, for me, for us
and I need ME to take on some other stuff AT THE SAME TIME
B E L I E V I N G Y O U C A N