Monday, September 12, 2016
So I've been working on my head a few months and now its time to start working in my food. I meal planned and precooked a bunch of meals today, went to the grocery store and came home.
I'm pretty sure I have sleep apnea, I wake up a lot with adreneline rushes and stuff... probably from not breathing right. I've been sleeping on my side and stomach more which helps, but I dont get good sleep and i think it reallu weara on me. After day 1 of food changes I am totally wiped out.
Emotionally I am so stressed out about my son. He is really having a hard time adjusting to first grade and i get emails home almost daily. I'm meeting with the advisors and principal tomorrow for the 3rd time this year (already, its been only a month since school started). I sent an email asking about expulsion and what it would take for him to be removed from school, because I'm worried it's going to come to that. I havent been a perfect mom, but I have tried so hard with him. I dont know what to do. We'll see what they have to say tomorrow. I'm hoping to hear that they arent wanting to remove him from school. I keep thinking back to when he was a little baby and how I never imagined myself where we are today...
I did well with food. I have a hard time not going back for seconds. Its a habit. I dont think I'm actually hungry, I just like the taste or have a compulsion I cant help. I'm going to get in bed early tonight and see if a few extra hours of sleep help me feel more awake tomorrow.