The Overweight Attorney
Thursday, September 08, 2016
I would like to tell you that my weight doesn't get to me every day but that is not the case. Being overweight makes me insecure, and rather actual or not, I feel judged by those that have no idea what it is like to walk in my shoes. For years I had no self-esteem, even when I was thin, and eating disorders were a part of my life since childhood.
I was blessed one day with a huge paradigm shift, no it has not taken away all of my insecurity, but it did make me realize you can be the best you no matter what your weight. On a regular school day as a high school teacher, a young lady came up to me. She was very overweight, but happy. Every morning she started calling me her beautiful teacher. She did this for about three years. I watched her walk with confidence and love herself. I realized that my students, especially the ones struggling with their weight, watched me every day. I could teach them confidence or give them a reason to feel ashamed. I chose confidence. I kept thinking how does a teenager know to love themselves but I do not. Liking and loving yourself does not mean you have to settle for being overweight, it just means that you don't have to dislike yourself, which just typically leads to being overweight and eating more. Stress eating is such a.....well you know.
So today I am going back to Court after ten years. I am one heck of an attorney, I lost one case in nine years, completed over 2000 (many settled). All summer I stressed about the fifty pounds that I put on and still have not taken off. I will look awful in a suit, people will not respect me, think I am lazy. Then I thought about my student friend. My weight is no one else's business. They do not know my medical chart. I am not there to look pretty but to do a good job, and I will, with confidence.