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Never say Never....

Sunday, September 04, 2016

After a two year absence, I have returned to sparks on a more consistent bases. I left BLC after Alice passed away. My grief and yes, guilt, was too deep to continue on without my friend. In those two years, I have gained a tremendous amount of weight, but have lost half of that in the past year. My goal is to lose 20 more to be at lifetime with wws...and ten on top of that for a personal goal.

I never thought I would want to return to BLC.....I thought there was a time and a place and my time had expired. I felt I had no place. For awhile now I was wondering if I was ready to return. I have become disenchanted with FB. The politics....the hate...the abused animals....just took the fun out of it for me. I have always used the social media for FUN and reconnecting with friends and making new. I wanted...something more .......I wanted that SPARK once again.

Was I ready? Am I ready?

I decided to take that plunge and try. I wasn't sure if I would make BLC and placed on a team. That insecure feeling arose and I waited.

I not only made BLC..but was placed on the Camo team! I felt....young again. I remember the first round I ever had with BLC. It was new....exciting...and a tad scary. The security blanket is gone and I am exposed.

I am like the prodigal daughter that has returned home. A little for the wear, but wiser......and....stronger with the passage of time.

I feel Alice with me. I feel she would understand and nod her what took you so long?

Each season is 13 weeks long. I am still on Summer Smiles and Autumn Leaves is not till September 21st. Yet...MY FALL will be 15 weeks long starting September 7th for that is when BLC starts and ends December 21st. Yes...I break up my seasons with titles/themes. Winter Whispers starts the December 21.

I am looking forward to being on the Camo Crew. I do like my alone quiet time, but....I ...have to admit......I also need the interaction with others that are constantly striving to be the best they can be.

I am totally amazed with how well organized BLC is now. It is like the full package deal. I am still confused on a few things, but realize as we go along, I will get the hang of it.

Anxious to see my progress after 15 weeks, but at the same time, not rushing the season..the round. I am going to work on the full package of ME.....

It feels.....okay.

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    SP is here, and many others when you need them.
    1156 days ago
    1158 days ago
    I found your post ah yea...I lost three dear friends here on spark one of which hurt me to the core. But i kept on going. On her going home date I visit her page and leave love notes. I know she can not talk to back but I do miss her everyday. I know I will see her again in heaven,. So it is not goodbye but see you later. I hope things have gotten better for you
    1430 days ago
    Yay Yay Yay!
    1543 days ago
    Awwww....too bad you never said Sis.....or I may have joined you on BLC.
    I had some bad expierences on blc but maybe time to give them another break eh?
    emoticon For you to get on a team though...good luck with the challenges!
    1544 days ago
    I'm glad you took the plunge and are back with BLC. I know you will be a valuable team member as you were with the RV Challenge. Perhaps in some small way that helped you decide. And I agree, Alice would be proud of you!
    1545 days ago
    good luck.
    1545 days ago
    I am so happy you are back! glad you are back with the BLC too! That anxiety is the kind of anxiety that helps us reach peak performances! I feel certain Alice is happy you are back and is rooting you on as she did in life! I'm so excited you are so close to lifetime with WW! You have done so well this past year! I hope to be reading many more of your inspirational blogs and am cheering you on, even from another team! I wish you the best Mary! I know you can and will succeed! Welcome back!!
    1545 days ago
    Glad that you are back
    1545 days ago
    Welcome back to SP. I, too came back recently after a 3 year absence. I'm proud to announce I'm feeling the spark again & I believe you will too. ☺
    1545 days ago
    Welcome back, sorry for your loss 😞 Yes you can do this! Good luck with your journey!😊
    1545 days ago
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