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Friday, September 02, 2016

John isn't doing so well !
Please forgive me if I repeat myself.
At this point sometimes I do believe I am losing it!

I believe I told you all about John test not being well.
In case I am wrong, his tests showed his liver cancer is still there and the spots somewhat larger. There is a cluster on his abdominal wall. They couldn't tell for sure just what it is. They didn't have any reason to believe it was anything else then cancerous.

Since then they have had to change his Chemo. The Chemo isn't working. Now, his bowels are slowed way down ! Even laxatives and hi-fiber isn't doing the job !

The oncologist said the other day that they are wondering if the cluster is the beginning of another blockage. John stated "no more surgeries ". The oncologist said he didn't think any surgeon would tackle it.


IN the last couple of days, his demented has changed. No more joking around. Can barely get a smile. No more teasing.

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  • LINDAF49
    Janet, I cannot be there with you but I can pray for you - hold you little puppy close and cry, tell him all about your grief for John. Then realize you can talk to God just the same way. I'm just so sorry and know you are hurting so much. Trust God and His plan and His time - assure John of your love and understanding and when it is time to let go, be sure to tell him that you can go on alone that God will be with you and you will be OK . Be strong and of GOOD courage. and keep writing here or any other journaling you need to do...we will stay close and hold on to you. Gentle hugs. Linda
    1429 days ago
    I am so sorry. I'll keep you in my prayers.
    1429 days ago
    I am so sorry, but the final decisions will be John's. My mother refused to accept my father's wishes, and she ended up putting him through a living hell while he prayed for death for the last 11 months of his life. All we can do is pray for acceptance of God's will.
    1430 days ago
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    1430 days ago
    so very sorry. Many prayers.
    1430 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3934996
    Angel.. When this begins to happen I understand too well.. Make sure you talk to him .. He still understands and the brain still hears... Even at the end.. up to fifteen minutes you can still hear.. Keep letting him know you love him and keep going back over things you loved.. He still can hear.. Please don't be sad.. I wished I had a magical word to give you but I don't except you have to wait on God.. It is His timing not ours.. In His Love and Grace Just Me emoticon emoticon
    1431 days ago
    Praying for all of you
    1431 days ago
    Love and prayers are with you all. May God give you peace and His strength. emoticon
    1431 days ago
  • no profile photo CD16421501
    Hello. My heart goes out to you. How very difficult to walk through, I'm sure. I see you are a Christian and I wanted to suggest, to help comfort you both, that you watch a John MacArthur sermon (you can find it on youtube or on the website "Why Does God Allow So Much Suffering And Evil". I have prayed for you both. Many many hugs to you....
    1431 days ago
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  • no profile photo CD15641307
    I saw your post on my app starter page and whilst I can't imagine what you are going through, I agree that it isn't fair. My thoughts are with you.
    1431 days ago
  • PURPLE0906
    Janet, I am so sorry you all are going through this. Still praying for all of you.


    1431 days ago
    May God wrap His arms around you!
    1431 days ago
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