The Fear of the Gain
Friday, August 26, 2016
Week 1: YIPPEE!
Week 2: YIPPEE!
Week 3: OH NO, A SMALLER LOSS THAN THE FIRST TWO, WOE IS ME.
Week 4: YIPPEE!
Now week 5 is underway and the scale hasn't moved down at all. In fact in a couple of mid-week sneak peaks, it's gone up.
That is not the plan.
I'll weigh in tomorrow instead of my usual Sunday since I'm heading down to visit family overnight. I'm going to be super duper extra good today food wise and just hope for the best, but mentally a gain is just not helpful.
This is why scales are stupid. I know I'm doing the right things for my health, but those obnoxious little numbers screw with my brain.
If I do have a gain, this is generally the part where I throw my hands in the air and proclaim it doesn't matter and my body is going to do whatever it wants and I should just go eat a (veggie) burger and fries because *!CK IT.
But, bottom line, I know that won't help. So I *might not* lose anything this week. My current defeatist attitude is not helping and I'm hoping by writing this down it'll help me snap out of it.
SUCK IT UP, SOLDIER.
Feel free to yell at me and knock me out of my own headspace in the comments.
Moving forward to this weekend, I'm a little worried. My family is not exactly the healthiest and everything tends to revolve around food. And it's a 1-year-old's birthday party so we're talking about cake and lots of extra food. I'm avoiding part of it by only going down there overnight (they're like 6+ hours away from me, but my whole family is coming up from Florida for ~3 days). So I'll spend lots of time in the car and eat in crappy chain restaurants when I get there.
Saturday AM: Yogurt before I go, breakfast bar on the way, mid-morning snack of cucumbers and tomatoes packed in the car with me.
Saturday PM: should get there in time for lunch. Pick something healthy. As healthy as you can get at Olive Garden or TGIFridays or whatever hellhole of a chain restaurant they pick. (Can you tell I am snobby??)
LiMiTED CALORIES AT THE PARTY. I have no idea what they're planning to have, but the good news for me is I'm betting a lot of it will be meaty and therefore super easy to say no to. It's the cakes, cookies, sweets that are always my downfall. I will eat any raw veggies they have (carrots, cucumbers, tomatoes, anything!). Depending on how lunch goes, I might allow myself one teensy tiny sliver of cake, if I can stay within my calorie range.
Sunday AM: Probably breakfast with the family - maybe oatmeal and fruit if I can get it. I'll have another mid-morning snack in the car, maybe one of the NS ones since they're easy and portable and don't need to be refrigerated.
Sunday PM: Home. Back on track. Healthy dinner. Maybe a trip to the store to prepare for the next week.
Like I've said 1000 times, it's the life-gets-in-the-way things that throw me off course. If I could just stay in my house and never interact with junk food I'd be a size 2 by now. hahaha