Anxious again...time to start over?
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
I am feeling very anxious about my weight/size right now. My plan this summer was to lose weight, or at least get to where I was at that point last year. I've gained back, plus 10 or so pounds, everything I had lost when I was actually losing weight and am now at the heaviest I've been in years. I was sick most of the summer (bad sinus infection) and then my asthma came back and the doctor said that I could not exercise. I was just finally able to start back with working out last Thursday. I have been worn out from starting my school job again (I work a full and a part time job--and sometimes both on the same day) so I am still getting adjusted to the schedule and routine. I am planning on taking a walk tomorrow after work and to go back to the gym or yoga. I had signed up for a 5k prior to my health issues and it is in a few week and I am worried about that. Part of me is well, I'm helping a good cause and I'm working out, and the other part of me is embarrassed and worried that something might happen. I do have an inhaler that I can carry with. My clothes don't fit like they used to and I've had to buy more clothes which I really can't afford to when I am trying to pay off bills and just general every day things. I don't know where to start. I was really proud of the fact that I didn't binge while at a in-service for work last week, and I told my therapist about that and she was proud of me as well, but being I am at a desk most of the day (and can eat while at one of them) mindless snacking is happening. I am not aware of how much I weigh now as I threw out my scale, so all I know is the number that I last saw when I was at the doctor. My meds doctor put me on a new medication (Wellbutrin, the generic form of it though, that i've been on now for almost two weeks) because I voiced concern that I was depressed because of my inability to do anything really physical and that I was gaining weight. Any advice? Words of wisdom?