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When peeps look at your hubby then you and back at him.

Monday, August 22, 2016

That's has been my life with my husband since I had my first daughter.. yes, I'm fat..He is not. He has unbelievable willpower, strength and loves to work out everyday. Me, not so much. I'm not morbidly obese but I have a good 70lbs to lose. I know how we look when we are out. I see it on the faces. Talk about depressing! Trying to let it not get to you is very hard. I've stooped to levels such as "What the F are you looking at?" I've started and stopped and started so many diets I can't even remember. I've gone as far as having a Lap band put in! That one is the worst. Why? Someone asked me why do you want to lose weight? Well for obvious reasons. I don't want high blood pressure anymore , I want to be able to move easier, I want to set a great example to my 3 beautiful daughters, I also don't want my husband to look at me in disgust. He hasn't as far as I know. This person was taken aback that I mentioned that..Think about it- I'm not comfortable in my skin. I hate how I look and feel. I understand why people look. I'm not saying it's right but I get it. So here I am at spark again. 3 times a charm. This time it feels different. I can't explain why but it does. I have a good feeling. Maybe in the near future it will be my husband saying to a stranger "what the F are you looking at?!" You know because I'll be hot stuff!😜
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    You can only change because YOU want to, not because what your husband might want. If you want to live your life miserable, so be it. If you want to change and live a life you deserve, take steps, baby steps. I wish you would not waste your life away, worrying what other people think or see. Before you know it, you will be 65 years old and wonder where all those years went when they should of been filled with happiness and joy. All you can do is try, that's all. Best wishes.
    1766 days ago
  • CYNDI100769
    Thanks friends! 😄 I am a work in progress. I'm feeling good about this especially when you have spark friends giving encouragement. Best of luck to you all.
    1766 days ago
    I get this on so many levels. But don't short change yourself just because you're a work in progress. I'm sure you're a great mom, a hard worker and a loving wife. Just keep moving forward. You're gonna do great things!
    1766 days ago
    I so know the feeling .. you speak from my life

    worst is when you had a baby in June and in Oct you are still wearing your post maternity clothes and people ask when are you due.

    You will get a lot of support here on your life challenging journey
    1766 days ago
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