When peeps look at your hubby then you and back at him.
Monday, August 22, 2016
That's has been my life with my husband since I had my first daughter.. yes, I'm fat..He is not. He has unbelievable willpower, strength and loves to work out everyday. Me, not so much. I'm not morbidly obese but I have a good 70lbs to lose. I know how we look when we are out. I see it on the faces. Talk about depressing! Trying to let it not get to you is very hard. I've stooped to levels such as "What the F are you looking at?" I've started and stopped and started so many diets I can't even remember. I've gone as far as having a Lap band put in! That one is the worst. Why? Someone asked me why do you want to lose weight? Well for obvious reasons. I don't want high blood pressure anymore , I want to be able to move easier, I want to set a great example to my 3 beautiful daughters, I also don't want my husband to look at me in disgust. He hasn't as far as I know. This person was taken aback that I mentioned that..Think about it- I'm not comfortable in my skin. I hate how I look and feel. I understand why people look. I'm not saying it's right but I get it. So here I am at spark again. 3 times a charm. This time it feels different. I can't explain why but it does. I have a good feeling. Maybe in the near future it will be my husband saying to a stranger "what the F are you looking at?!"
You know because I'll be hot stuff!😜