Mi Vida Loca
Thursday, August 18, 2016
This week was a whirlwind of school and doctor appointments. We had my three year olds CPSE meeting and he will be going to a school part-time starting next month 21/2 hours and a teacher will come to our home for the other half of the day. My five-year old is starting Kindergarten so I will be losing both kids at the same time. Neither went to pre-school before now. It feels weird, and at the same time I feel accomplished. It has taken a lot to get to this point. My 11th grader enrolled today and he seems in good spirits considering he is starting at an all new high school.
The hardest thing for me right now is the kids are staying up all night again. I have been going to bed at 5 in the morning most days, it makes having energy pretty inconsistent. My work outs are pretty non-existent. With all of our appointments, I averaged about four hours of sleep a lot of nights. My kids are working with a team of specialists now, so I am hoping we can get the sleep schedules under control.
I kept my promise and have been vigilantly going to the doctors. I have a lot going on and found out I may need a major surgery. I will know for sure in a few weeks. It explains a lot of my issues, including weight gain and hormonal concerns. Things are a little crazy and I am not back to work yet. It is looking like November depending on the surgery. Just trying to put one foot in front of the other.
I have been very depressed lately, crying a lot. I thought it was lack of sleep but my doctors say it is depression and grief. It has been a year since we received our sons diagnosis but I have not really dealt with it emotionally, working on it. I went through a blaming phase this summer, wondering if I could have done something different. I know I am being ridiculous, no one knows why these things happen, and all I can do is just keep working towards something good. I really need to get the t-shirt below, it is pretty much my life in a nutshell when it comes to my kids.