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Wednesday, August 10, 2016

08/10/2016 - 217.6 pounds

I am going to try to log in and do a blog everyday of what I am doing for myself to reach weight-loss, better health and self preservation goals.

Depression is such a difficult thing and can get completely lost in the negative thought mindset. The darkness is so dark and lonely. I am trying to consistently climb out of the hole. I have been reading New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and Feeling Good by Dr. Barns in order to help myself out of the hole.

It is scary to be in that dark space. However, I have been reading frequently these two books and can kind of pinpoint my thoughts to change them to a more positive place to see the thoughts as thoughts and not as what they seem. The mind is such a powerful thing and cause so many tricks on you if you let it. Learning about how the ego won't let things go and will change things in order for it to be so persistent to keep the thoughts. I have to re-train my thoughts and my mind so I can find a moment of piece.

Yesterday, I was in a very dark place and I had a moment of clarity and peace while there and realized that I need to take care of me and to gain my confidence as a Medical Assistant. I cannot explain the feeling I experienced. It is almost like a hand of a higher power saw me and where I was in my emotional pain and wrapped me up in their hands and took away the pain and insecurities for a brief minute and told me everything will be ok if I let everything go.

I am not much of a religious person so I am not sure what I experienced other then the feeling that someone is there and gave me a moment of peace within myself and clarity. Life is precious and we only have one.

I am thinking if I log in each day to report on what I did in regards to my emotional healing, weight loss and just feeling better in general it will help me see where I have been and where I am going.

Today I did 30 minutes of yoga and got my Fitbit charged and the app re-downloaded.
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    Wow, you and I both had a very similar days. I understand completely about that dark place when I feel like i can't continue. I cry out to Jesus and he does the same for me giving me peace and picking me up. I know you're not religious, but i wouldn't be surprised if it was Jesus saying, Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light, Matthew 11:28-30. Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.. Something to think about though isn't it. Because of this, today is a better day for me.
    1809 days ago
    What a wonderful blog! You can do this...I joined a gym and got a personal trainer today. Had the same clarity moment. Proud of you chick!
    1809 days ago
    Nice job keep it up my fitbit goals are my motivation to reach my goals
    1809 days ago
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