life in recovery, balance
Sunday, July 31, 2016
Recovery for me, has to be about balance. When my life is unbalanced, I feel the compulsion to eat, and this past week has been unbalanced. While my day job continues, and will be there for the next 13 years, ( I got my 20 year certificate last week), it doesn’t fund me. So I started a direct sales gig. So far, I have spent $200, and made less than $20. But it has consumed me. The urge to make my first sale goal was intense, and I ate. Just nibbles here and there, mostly protein but still it was a relapse in that I was eating my emotions. My weight this morning was up three pounds. It could be the start of PMS, as I have had horrid cramps, too. So I resolve to work a little self care in the balance. My side job is all about self care- to fund it, to partake in it, and to sell it. ( perfectly posh, bath and body all nature products for pampering). I am learning that self care keeps me going. So each day I resolve to do something for my health ( meds, supplements, diet, walking) for my recovery ( reading, prayer, tracking, meetings) for my pocket book ( go to work, work my business) and all the other family stuff that comes up. Jake leaves in 20 days. Bailey is learning to drive. Hannah should move out again soon. Vanessa is moving out. Augsut is going to be a crazy month, with fair, people leaving and going. My next blog will be a round up July and setting goals for August.