Scratch that week...
Monday, July 18, 2016
Last week I had a much needed break from work, and a much needed visit from my best friend. Unfortunately, I also took a bit of a "break" from my smart food choices, and had several poor choices at meals and several "treats", along with a few adult beverages that are high in calories. On the plus side, we had a couple of days with a lot of walking, and had several meals that were purposefully healthy.
The downside is I feel like I slipped back into old habits, and it was just TOO easy to do so. Even after my guests left, I didn't get quite all the way back onto the wagon. This weekend had a few bad choices also, and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed and trying to figure out how to get myself back on track and get motivated again. I'm trying to remind myself that it was just one not-so-great week, and it doesn't have to continue. I can't let it continue! My progress has been slow, but it's progress nonetheless, and I want to keep going!
On that note, today I had my go-to healthy breakfast, packed a yummy big salad for lunch, my baby carrots for an afternoon snack, and I will keep my dinner portion in check. I'm also working on getting in more water (I was doing well but have recently been struggling to keep it up), and although I had 2 snickers mini's (the bite sized ones) from the new candy bowl at the front desk (seriously? Why???) I'm done with the candy. Thankfully there is no more chocolate in it and I have no problem turning down the random hard candy that's left. I also tracked my food so far, which I think I need to start doing again. It's too easy to overeat and not even realize it!
I'm afraid stress is one of my biggest challenges when it comes to making good food choices (I'm an emotional eater for sure), and I've been putting a lot of thought into my current job position. When I transferred to this position last October (we moved to a new city for my hubby to go to school, and luckily I was able to transfer through my job to a location here) I thought a change in job duties would be nice. And the job itself isn't too bad, but it's been downhill with our being short staffed, and then the announcement that they wouldn't be replacing those positions. And now the work load that's left isn't evenly distributed, and it's weighing heavy on me. And despite talking to my supervisor and manager, I don't see that changing. Ever.
So here I am, just 10 months at this new job and there is a position open in the department that I used to work in. I'm much more comfortable with that work, but there are a few drawbacks... this is a different city (so I'd need to learn the area), my desk would be in an office with even less space and privacy than my current cubicle... hard to believe that's possible, but it is... and instead of the normal 8-5, I'd be working 3am - noon. I'm not sure yet if that's a bad thing or not. I believe I'd be less stressed and possibly happier (it's much more laid back), but I worry about getting a good night's sleep and waking up basically in the middle of the night. And I also worry about how it would look to put in for a different job so soon after getting this one. Granted, I applied because it was really the only option at the time I needed it, and I've enjoyed the challenge of learning new skills (and I continue to learn as they pile new duties on me), but I'm worried that there's really no end in sight and no real concern over my (and other's) cries of being overworked, overloaded, and stressed out. I don't like letting people down, and even though the job is basically impossible (too much work, not enough time, not allowed overtime!), I'm still trying to make it happen. I feel like a hamster on a wheel trying to reach a destination. If only I had a treadmill desk... ;)
Sorry this post turned into a novel... at least I took some sort of break today. Now back to whatever task that seems the most urgent until it's time to go home!