do it for the serotonin and endorphins
Thursday, July 14, 2016
I'm not a blogger. But hey -- I do need a new hobby. Today I woke up at 4am. I pinned on pinterest for a long time, made coffee for my host (i'm on vacation), and then ate breakfast and listened to self-hypnosis videos on youtube while I tried to go back to sleep. I did. But I woke up even lower (mentally) than before my nap. The sky looked amazing outside my window. It had been scary earlier. I soooo did NOT want to get out of bed.
But I have bi-polar disorder and diabetes. Both play with my mood. I had been on a pink cloud for 10 days after making a major life change. But then some apathy started to settle in... or was it just the normal hum drum of life. See normal to me seems boring compared to my UP moods. I wasn't depressed. I just lacked interest and motivation. It has been getting more prominent each day. I VERY well could have stayed in bed ALL day until my friend came home.
Instead I took a picture of the sky and sent it to her and told her that I would be going out for a walk. Then I texted my son back from the morning text I had received and not replied to. I let him know that I would be going out to lift my mood.
Now two people knew. oh the pressure. lol. I got dressed and went. Its been an hour since I got back from my walk and my head feels clear. I feel good. Did I want to go? NO. But just for today I went ahead and got it done anyway.
I am glad I did.