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Thursday, July 14, 2016

I'm not a blogger. But hey -- I do need a new hobby. Today I woke up at 4am. I pinned on pinterest for a long time, made coffee for my host (i'm on vacation), and then ate breakfast and listened to self-hypnosis videos on youtube while I tried to go back to sleep. I did. But I woke up even lower (mentally) than before my nap. The sky looked amazing outside my window. It had been scary earlier. I soooo did NOT want to get out of bed.

But I have bi-polar disorder and diabetes. Both play with my mood. I had been on a pink cloud for 10 days after making a major life change. But then some apathy started to settle in... or was it just the normal hum drum of life. See normal to me seems boring compared to my UP moods. I wasn't depressed. I just lacked interest and motivation. It has been getting more prominent each day. I VERY well could have stayed in bed ALL day until my friend came home.

Instead I took a picture of the sky and sent it to her and told her that I would be going out for a walk. Then I texted my son back from the morning text I had received and not replied to. I let him know that I would be going out to lift my mood.

Now two people knew. oh the pressure. lol. I got dressed and went. Its been an hour since I got back from my walk and my head feels clear. I feel good. Did I want to go? NO. But just for today I went ahead and got it done anyway.

I am glad I did. emoticon emoticon
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    Great topic !! Super effort too !!! You got some good feelings from a job well done. Bipolar is a B---h to have to deal with and diabetes really complicates the emotional mix. I, feel better when I am manic, but the depressions are so debilitating. You were awesome this day!!Keep this kind of determination going once you find it. emoticon I have faith that you will reach your goals. emoticon Deb emoticon
    1289 days ago
    I walk first thing every am. Helps with depression. I also go out in afternoon and work in garden. Sunshine is great antidepressant
    1365 days ago
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