Friday, July 08, 2016
so....another humbling moment...
I work in a café, that has different kinds of functions all the time, and one of them is a yoga class. I happened to be working when it was happening, and nobody was coming in, so I decided I would join the class. I used to take yoga quite a bit. At the time, I didn't consider it much of a workout.
60 pounds later....(and don't think it doesn't break my heart to say that)...
I can hardly bend over and still breathe. My stomach is so big I can't do a lot of things I did before with absolutely no problem. The only thing bigger than my stomach is my chest, and if I don't pass out by bending over I am suffocated by my chest.
So yes, this is the reality right now. I don't feel shame. Which is good. But I do feel like what is it going to take?....You know? I am so confounded and eternally dogged by this thing. It's going to take some kind of change, focus, reconfiguration. I do not want to be this fat. What's it gonna take?!!!!