life in recovery; anxiety and the 4th of July.
Monday, July 04, 2016
the Lord wants us to be at peace, and the closer we are to Him, the more peaceful we feel. Peace is a good indicator that our actions are pleasing to Him. On the other hand, a persistent lack of peace typically indicates that the Lord is trying to get your attention. Give Him that attention, and He will show you what's up!
-from Faith, Hope & Clarity
Happy Independence Day, which is ironic because I am learning it's about Dependence, on something NOT me to handle this. I fell, with just tidbits here and there, and its a slippery slope to jellybeans in the middle of the night. I am now awake, with a plan and a prayer. The scripture of the day is from Philippians.4:6-7, "Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition (definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God. 7 And God's peace [shall be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." And then there was the morning prayer on the OA app, which comes from the Big Book of AA. “we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self seeking motives… We ask God for inspiration… we relax and take it easy, we don’t struggle…"
I am working on Step Two, and am trying to center God as my higher power. I am finding that the more I relax, and let God, the easier it is. But It hasn’t been easy, giving up my food power, only eating what is on plan, and turning over the anxiety is the hardest thing I have done. I slipped yesterday, ate off plan and didn’t turn any thoughts over, didn’t work on recovery at all. Today is better.