Tuesday, June 28, 2016
I'm going through a turbulent time right now. My dear friend passed away earlier this week. While I will miss her I am glad her suffering has ended. The funeral will be this Friday. I will do all I can to support her loved ones.
Today my sister ended up in the hospital again. She fell out of bed yesterday and had to call 911 to get her up. She didn't let them take her to the hospital at that time I think more because she was embarrassed by the situation.
She is extremely obese and can barely get around by herself anymore. She uses a cane to walk. She gets so out of breath just walking 10 feet that she has to stop and rest as she is gasping for air. But God bless her she still works although she is retiring in August.
When she fell at 4:30 am she couldn't get herself up hence the 911 call. EMS came and it took them awhile to get her up. Today when she woke up she was so sore and bruised everywhere that she drove herself to the hospital. After being xrayed from head to toe, they determined that nothing was broken. But a blood test showed that her kidney functions were off so they admitted her.
She has been hospitalized for her kidney functions being off in the past, most recently about 1 1/2 months ago. My sister has too many medical problems to list here and takes too many medications to list.
She just turned 66 years old last week and I fear she won't last much longer. And I feel tremendous guilt that I am unable to help her more. I am all she has in terms of family so I feel great pressure to do whatever she needs done. But in doing that, she doesn't even try to do anything for herself.such as food shopping ect. This a bone of contention between my husband and myself because he feels she just expects me to drop what I'm doing and tend to her. I know that is true a lot of the time but that's where the guilt comes in.
I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place with the two of them.
Sorry to ramble on like this but I just needed to put this out there because I just don't know how to handle it. I feel great pressure from her, from him from my job, and my life.