Sabotaging my Efforts
Tuesday, June 28, 2016
I am currently living with relatives and out of money due to a huge down payment on a house. When we first moved in, I told them about our summer challenge and how at this point this is really life and death for me. They were supportive. I am starting to show signs of loss. One relative commented on it the other day and now is proceeding to get baked goods, fast food and all other sorts of items and bring them home every day. It is so weird, she is very thin and does not eat any of it. She is bringing items that she knows I love. As a kid she put me on a diet when I was five. I grew up thinking I was so huge. Looking back at the pictures, I was a normal healthy little girl. They are generously letting us stay here, but this is really upsetting. On one hand she wants me to be thin, always has, but on the other hand, she brings me food to binge on. I know it is my choice and I am going to handle the best I can. It is just bringing me back to a lot of painful situations. I don't understand why she would do this. I have spoke with her about it before but she gets defensive. She says others in the house will want it. That is probably true but I know my kids really don't need that junk.