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Sabotaging my Efforts

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

I am currently living with relatives and out of money due to a huge down payment on a house. When we first moved in, I told them about our summer challenge and how at this point this is really life and death for me. They were supportive. I am starting to show signs of loss. One relative commented on it the other day and now is proceeding to get baked goods, fast food and all other sorts of items and bring them home every day. It is so weird, she is very thin and does not eat any of it. She is bringing items that she knows I love. As a kid she put me on a diet when I was five. I grew up thinking I was so huge. Looking back at the pictures, I was a normal healthy little girl. They are generously letting us stay here, but this is really upsetting. On one hand she wants me to be thin, always has, but on the other hand, she brings me food to binge on. I know it is my choice and I am going to handle the best I can. It is just bringing me back to a lot of painful situations. I don't understand why she would do this. I have spoke with her about it before but she gets defensive. She says others in the house will want it. That is probably true but I know my kids really don't need that junk.
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    I'm sorry you are going for this. It sounds like you have a great backup plan thou, with a friend ready to talk you down off the ledge when that tempting food starts calling to you. Her motivation in doing this really doesn't matter in the end. You have done what you can. This situation is temporary, and I see you doing all you can to keep with your healthy habits. You are doing great! emoticon
    1507 days ago
    Sometimes we do things, subconsciously. She may deep in there somewhere not want you to succeed at health and wellness (dieting). There might be some psychogically gain for her, in your failing. Stay strong! Food pushers, we all have one or 2.
    1507 days ago
    That's very odd that she started doing that after noticing you lost weight! It won't be easy but somehow you'll need to ignore that junk. Maybe if every time you're tempted, remind yourself that she is trying to manipulate you. Don't Let Her! U Rule!
    1507 days ago
    People who get defensive always have ulterior motives. Know that you are better than that and keep your head held high! If you feel you want the junk, pick up your phone instead and I will talk you down! Just stay focused on you!
    1507 days ago
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