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Friday, June 24, 2016


I'm freaking out a little.

I posted on my status recently that something big was happening in my life.

The big news is I've been selected to be in a magazine and tell my weight loss story!

I'm not comfortable sharing which one or when yet, but I promise I'll let you know that when it comes out. But I got the call sheet for my photoshoot this morning (it's on Tuesday) and it feels really official so I figured I'd mentioned it here.


Not about the article or the photos, I'm sure they'll be great.

I'm just stressing because there will be five people in my apartment and all of their attention will be focused on ME. I'm stressing because this publication is big and lots of new people will hear my story. I'm stressing because I'm stress eating about a story that focus on my HEALTHY LIVING lol. Ironic, no?

I talked with a very good friend last night about it. I'm afraid the clothes they're mailing me won't fit. It's all very last minute and that freaks me out a little. My biggest fear is that somehow I will disappoint someone. I don't know how. It's irrational I guess. I'm looking at the scale and it's up and that's freaking me out. I'm looking at my excess skin that sometimes pokes out of my bras under my arms and that's freaking me out. I'm suddenly concerned that I'm going to gain all my weight back because my eating habits have been disastrous this past week. I want to make something tasty to share with the crew and THAT'S freaking me out! Ahhhhhh!!!!

I'm at work but I want to go home and scrub my kitchen floor so I'm not embarrassed.

I'm not fishing for compliments or positive reinforcement or anything, I just need to vent.

Thanks for listening.
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    So exciting! Can't wait to see the article. :)
    973 days ago
    Agreed another feeble attempt for attention ...
    973 days ago
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    978 days ago
    Wow! that is big and exciting news! You deserve this honor and I'm sure everything will go nicely! Congrats! I can't wait to hear about it :)
    996 days ago
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    That is awesome news! Can't wait to read the article. I know it's going to be a great article & you'll look great in the clothes.

    I totally get the stress eating. When you want to stress eat, try asking yourself questions - something like "Is this how someone who has been selected to be featured in a successful weight loss article would choose to eat?" I don't know if that will work for you, but when I'm stress eating, asking myself questions about who I am sometimes works.
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    997 days ago
  • LUCKEE40
    That is awesome!! You are going to look gorgeous!! Just remember that you could inspire someone who is reading that magazine to get up and change their life! They are not going to be looking at that pic of you and think, hmm look at that, and that doesn't right. No, that person is going to think, 'wow, she looks amazing and I want to look like her! You rock and your are going to own that magazine article!
    997 days ago
  • ARAZA30
    You're gonna be just fine. You should be proud of what you've accomplished. I'm proud of you!
    998 days ago
  • KMW987
    That is AMAZING news!!! Congrats!

    Try not to be nervous (I know, easier said than done - I'm the same way!) and try to enjoy the moment! You get your own glam squad!!! So cool! You have to tell us all about it! I'm so excited for you!!!!

    998 days ago
    emoticon Is this the magazine that SP Coach Jen sent the emails out about. I never answered the email because I wasn't comfortable about sharing my story with anyone except on SP. I also don't like having my picture taken even by family. When there is a wedding or some event and I see I camera I duck or get up and move.
    998 days ago
    AMAZING!!! Hope you will have a great time during this process. CONGRATS
    998 days ago
    I know you can do it! I really feel deep down that you can do it and you feel really deep down too, that you can do it! You have all the power within. And yet I know, that you'll be so HAPPY when it's over. For the crew, what about veggies and a healthy dip, or beautiful fruit and a healthy dip? I am so proud of you and you will look amazing. I can't wait to see you featured!!!! And yes, you will be spilling over to tell us in what magazine!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    998 days ago
    Sorry, NOT sorry, you were BORN to be a rockstar and you just ARE, no matter what, so THERE! Big HUGS on this great venture! WOW!!!!!
    998 days ago
    Ahhh...stress big time. Unwanted, but very understandable. Have you ever done anything like this before? No? Stress. Do you want control over the situation? Yes. But do you have? No. Stress. Are you so excited?? Yes!! Stress. It's easy for anyone to tell you to relax - you got this, but it doesn't take away the feelings of excitement, anxiety, stress, fear, joy, happiness, so focus on the HAPPY part!! Keep doing your amazing workouts. Keep drinking the amazing amounts of water that you drink. Keep eating healthy, because you DO eat healthy. Even your snacks are healthy (for the most part!! emoticon ). So spend Sunday and Monday tidying and cleaning and making an awesome snack for the crew. Congratulations my friend!!
    998 days ago
  • KONRAD695
    First things first emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Now the part about you eating and scrubbing. The kitchen floor is understandable, and yes you should scrub it. Not because it needs it, but because in will channel some stress and leave a little peace for you. The eating part is simple, but I think you may be over thinking it. The magazine is coming to talk about your weight loss journey- isn't that what your doing right now?! Tell them about it! Tell them how stress still leads to random eating, munching, and too many calories. Then tell them about your support group and how you've learned that friends and a safety net can be a valuable resource. Next you could say how you used scrubbing the floor as a healthy release, and then did a workout on it, because it was so darn clean. You can even talk about the morning exercise you did just before the shoot to get those muscles looking right, boost those endorphins, and bring just a little extra too your day.

    I'm thinking "you got this." In fact you got it, had it, and have been doing it for years. You're just simply continuing on with it.

    So well done, carry on, and drink your water. It's all good.

    Oh- the clothes. They usually send a bunch figuring some don't fit. Not fitting (or fitting tight) is normal. They like it snug, not loose. It will photo better.
    998 days ago
    Sounds exciting and I'm sure you'll be great. Sounds really neat! emoticon
    998 days ago
    *listening mode on*
    You talk as much as you need to!
    And this is exciting!!!
    998 days ago
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    998 days ago
  • SUNSHINE99999
    Wow! Good luck with everything. emoticon
    998 days ago
  • VALYNN26
    How exciting! Breathe deep. You'll do great! emoticon I am so excited for you!!
    998 days ago
    Good luck with it. I'm sure everything will work out fine.
    998 days ago
    emoticon Take some deep breaths and relax. This is a major accomplishment and one to be proud of. What you're feeeling is not unusual. Am rooting for you!! emoticon emoticon
    998 days ago
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    I can hardly wait to find out which magazine so I can buy it!!

    You're going to do amazing, good luck bud!!
    998 days ago
    That's an amazing accomplishment. It's great to be recognized for your hard work. I understand what you mean, a lot of people do not like attention like that. Just breathe and take it all in. It's really great!!
    998 days ago
    That's huge thing. First, breath and you got this. Remember weight comes and goes. If the clothes does not fit. Remember it's you're journey of transformation to better yourself and others. Fun and health trays for staff. H20..i am a newbie.
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    998 days ago
    More than a diet its a healthy life style . you have already proven to yourself that you can to it. Now deep calming breaths
    998 days ago
    Vent away but take some deep breaths and remind yourself all that you have accomplished. Remember this,journey is more than about
    998 days ago
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