Friday, June 24, 2016
I'm freaking out a little.
I posted on my status recently that something big was happening in my life.
The big news is I've been selected to be in a magazine and tell my weight loss story!
I'm not comfortable sharing which one or when yet, but I promise I'll let you know that when it comes out. But I got the call sheet for my photoshoot this morning (it's on Tuesday) and it feels really official so I figured I'd mentioned it here.
I AM SO NERVOUS.
Not about the article or the photos, I'm sure they'll be great.
I'm just stressing because there will be five people in my apartment and all of their attention will be focused on ME. I'm stressing because this publication is big and lots of new people will hear my story. I'm stressing because I'm stress eating about a story that focus on my HEALTHY LIVING lol. Ironic, no?
I talked with a very good friend last night about it. I'm afraid the clothes they're mailing me won't fit. It's all very last minute and that freaks me out a little. My biggest fear is that somehow I will disappoint someone. I don't know how. It's irrational I guess. I'm looking at the scale and it's up and that's freaking me out. I'm looking at my excess skin that sometimes pokes out of my bras under my arms and that's freaking me out. I'm suddenly concerned that I'm going to gain all my weight back because my eating habits have been disastrous this past week. I want to make something tasty to share with the crew and THAT'S freaking me out! Ahhhhhh!!!!
I'm at work but I want to go home and scrub my kitchen floor so I'm not embarrassed.
I'm not fishing for compliments or positive reinforcement or anything, I just need to vent.
Thanks for listening.