Friday, June 24, 2016
I tend to come and blog when I am having a hard time not stress eating and not in a good spot. Please don't read this if you are looking for a sunny, happy blog, I use this as a tool.
I am dealing with hormones for the first time on this journey. TOM is overdue. Yesterday I was craving so bad, and I gave into some of my cravings. It makes me so worried that I will not be successful, I know that is not logical, but I still get scared. I feel very stressed today as I am looking over my finances and everything seems so uncertain. I am trying to find that happy place where I can breathe but it is hard. The kids are not sleeping again, and the lack of sleep really gets me every time. I am writing because I need to remember why I am doing this and not let my circumstances dictate my food and exercise decisions.
It is way too easy when I am tired to not think and just eat. Cravings make it so much easier.
I took yesterday off from exercise, my knee is still hurting and I felt exhausted. Little guy was up at 4:00 AM and I did not get to sleep until one, so you can imagine. It was not much better last night either. I did something really weird, I bought a foam roller and measuring spoons and cups today. Money is tight but I wanted to remind myself that I am worth it too. Anyways, going to put the down payment on the house in about an hour. It is a big step, it is making me nervous. At least we got a house, that is huge. My husband is employed and I have possibilities. The School District also called and they are getting ready to begin my sons services, that is why we moved. At times this feels like a train wreck. There has to be some light at the end of the tunnel.