Life in recovery, Family gatherings.
Wednesday, June 22, 2016
Life in recovery; family gatherings.
Last week, I avoided a social gathering because I couldn’t be around food choices and alcohol and be sane. This week, I have to attend a family gathering where there will be food choices and alcohol and lots of options for emotional eating. My anxiety will be high. The first hurdle is traveling for 8 hours. I packed fresh fruit, lunch meat, carrots and celery. I have no control over the rehearsal dinner so will just enjoy a meal that I didn’t have to prepare. Breakfast will be leftover travel food, or an omelet somewhere. Lunch is light, and then there is the wedding reception. Then we travel for 8 hours. Friday we have errands in the big town, and then I will be home. I will need lots of prayer for these two days.
Last night at the OA meeting, we read chapter two of the 12 and 12 brown book. I could have written it. The description of the insanity of food obsession. The history of the progression of the disease. The struggle of faith. All of these fit me. I have truly come to believe that I am powerless over my food obsession and addiction and that my life is unmanageable, where a higher power, faith in something greater than me, can restore me to sanity.