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Down 1.8 lbs.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

I'm down 1.8 lbs. I've lost 100.2 lbs. since last November. I'm pleased but not as joyful as you might expect. Not only do I still have a really long way to go but this will be the 4th time in the past 15 years that I've lost 100 lbs. The last three times I gained it back. So, it doesn't feel like a new or special accomplishment and it brings up a lot of guilt and embarrassment about having repeatedly gained back weight I've lost in the past. Oh well, I quite smoking dozens of times before it took. A couple of times I quit smoking for over a year and then started again. It's now been 12 years since I quit smoking. If I can quit a 3 1/2 pack a day smoking habit I can learn to manage my weight.

I'm doing well with my experiment with one exception. I had planned to regularly seek out sources of motivation and inspiration and have been a little lax in that department. It may be because I'm not struggling to stay on track at the moment. But I want to keep it that way so I'm going to work on the inspiration/motivation piece this week.

Hope you all are having a good day.
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