Monday, June 13, 2016

What a horrible freaking week! I have exercised at minimum 3 times in the last week. I have not tracked my food all week. I am only down 1 lb since last week's weigh in. I just needed a break. I needed to feel normal and be like every one else for a minute. I didn't break my eating habits. I'm still following a very strict paleo diet. But I have not followed my eating schedule. I have not eaten as many times as I should. Instead I eat when I'm hungry and not because it's time to eat. I have not given great care regarding my protein choices. I have chosen high salt, high fat meats over lean protein meats like chicken and fish. I have avoided most veggies. I have have traded in my salads for lunch with a meat and a veggie for lunch. And my reward. .... 1lb lost and an enormous amount of rage and emotions that make me aware of my history of self sabotage. To date I've lost 30 lbs since April 8th. And yes that's an amazing feat! And yes, I busted my ass to get into the size 14 pants. But tomorrow starts a new week and I must forget this past week, be grateful for the 30 lbs released and move forward with determination and courage to do the impossible. Another thought, it's not as much fun now that my husband is in competition with me and he has lost 20 lbs in less than a month and it took me for what seemed like forever to lose my first 20 lbs. Grrrr! Male metabolism sucks! This past week was also filled with extreme exhaustion and fear that I was headed backwards toward square one. Prior to April 8th is NOT a place I ever care to visit again in my life and I was riding the fence on that one. I was so afraid. Today seems to be better in the way of energy. I will go back to the gym tomorrow and continue to bust my ass with each rising sun.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Hang in there! A 1 lb. weight loss IS good!

    Ok, I'm going to get on my soap box a minute and just say we can't compare ourselves to someone else. We are all an experiment of one. So the idea is to do what works for us. YES it sucks not to be able to eat just exactly what we want in the amt. we want anytime. But the reality for me anyhow is this . . .that didn't work for me and believe me . . . there are plenty of others out here for whom it doesn't work alone. The take away on that one is you are NOT alone.

    Hang in there. Choose one or two behaviors to carry out every day till they become a habit. Then move on and add more. Be sure your goals are realistic.

    HUGS to you. The male metabolism DOES suck. GRRrrr. Totally agree w/you on that one.
    1594 days ago
  • DAP1313
    Just think of it as a vacation week. I think you are doing fantastic. Sometimes we have to take a "break" and then we get back on track. Hang in there! emoticon
    1594 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.