Another Update - Losing It For Baby
Monday, June 13, 2016
It's been a while since I've updated, almost a year actually. Things have NOT been going well. I was on the list for IVF, spent almost seven months waiting while on meds, just to find out I can't do it because my eggs are rotten. I knew my endo was bad, I knew my weight was bad, but I thought at 28 I would still have good eggs. Apparently not. All my results came back that I have diminished ovarian reserve. My doctor wanted me to try IUI but for the cost and the time I just couldn't do it. I decided to suck it up and wait out international adoption when I was contacted by a woman who wanted to donate embryos to me. I was shocked! So now we are doing the paperwork for that to be completed. Once done I just need to save up the money to transfer an embryo. I'm hoping to transfer around the end of May next year. I REALLY wanted to do it sooner but I can't afford to and I want to lose as much weight as possible by then.
Right now my goal is 50 lbs. I have two weeks with a personal trainer, then a four week bootcamp. I'm hoping after that I'll have enough of a start to keep going on my own. Food is my major challenge though. I'm vegan but eat junk. I'm really trying to avoid added sugar and processed foods but some days is really hard.
I read somewhere a quote about my uterus being a garden and I need to nurture the soil in order for something to grow. If I don't lose weight, if I keep eating junk, and the transfer fails I will never forgive myself. I need to do this for myself but also my future baby.
For those interested in following my journey on YouTube my channel can be found at www.youtube.com/user/choiceofm