I want to go home.
Monday, June 06, 2016
Well, I had myself a nice 3-day weekend. That makes 2 in a row now, but funny it doesn't feel like I worked any less. I took Friday off and went to visit my old co-workers and had a cookout for "my guys". It was nice, but sadly I missed seeing some of the guys so that was a bit disappointing. Just bad timing but at least I tried! I also got to see my niece and nephew for a little bit, and met a friend of mine's new baby girl for the first time. It was good to go for a visit, but sometimes I think it just makes me miss it more. I want to go home.
Yes, I'm admitting that I'm struggling here. Really struggling! I'm trying so hard not to, but I feel like this place... the city, the house we bought, my job... it feels like everything is against me. I love my husband dearly, but he just doesn't really understand why I feel this way. To be fair, I don't understand it myself really. He just says it really isn't any different than where we lived before, but to me it is. I liked my job, I liked my co-workers, I loved my little house, I had a couple of friends nearby, my brother and his kids were right down the road. Now I feel so out of place! I don't like my job, I don't really have anyone to connect with at work, the drive alone is maddening, things keep going wrong with the house and I don't care for it to begin with, even my sweet kitty passed away within 6 months of moving here! Why can't it all just settle down into a new normal?
Phew, sorry if you're reading this, I guess I needed to let that out. At any rate, I'm still plugging away with trying to lose some of this extra weight. As I said before, I'm starting to slip and I really want to refocus this week and get back on track. Who knew it was so hard to stick with the plan? I did burn some calories over the weekend with several hours of serious weed pulling! This house has large flower beds, which are pretty, but I made the mistake of not keeping up with weeding. Now my hands, back, and especially my legs hurt! I dread trying to mow the grass, I can barely walk! lol
Ok.... I better get back to work. Too much to do, not enough time to do it... talk about discouraging!