Returning to "normal"
Sunday, June 05, 2016
The past six weeks were quite a challenge.
It started with my son and his father being admitted to the hospital the same day in different cities.
Son is ok again.
Stress took its toll and I suddenly had a bout of shingles. Luckily they behaved themselves well and left without leaving any nerve-pain or scares.
My son's father died two weeks ago - we were married in the *80s and have ever since been friends. It was my first day out again and I wanted to visit him - so I sat with him till his last heartbeat. May he rest in peace.
Two days later son arrived to take care of all formalities and the funeral - and I supported him.
Only for the past two days have I been able to sit in silence and let all the emotions ebb. I can not even put into words what thoughts are running through my head. The past two days I spent cleaning and decluttering. It was like coming back down to earth.
What I learned? It is so important to take care of oneself. So often we think, that a pain we feel is not important, that we have no time to have a medical check up. We fear what might be the diagnosis. This is such a paradox thought. If a pain is the sign of a really bad illness, it might be cured or at least eased when diagnosed early. And if it is nothing, then there has to be no fear.
I have seen what an illness can do to a person who feared to let it be diagnosed!
So now I'm back to taking care of myself.
My friends, please take care of yourself!