Four Months Later...
Thursday, June 02, 2016
So, it's four months since I posted my last blog, but it all pretty much still applies, except that I weigh even MORE, and my old overalls are even CLOSER to completely wearing out, and a bunch more difficult stuff has been added to my life (daughter and son-in-law splitting up after 12 years, announcing that they're both gay, and both moving away, and future daughter-in-law who doesn't like me for some unknown reason, and therefore I don't see my son much, and niece-who-is-living-with-us having complications with her pregnancy). These are not valid excuses for gaining weight, but it happens every time for me. I eat for comfort.
So, if I really really get serious here and lose 2 lbs a week (probably too ambitious a goal), I could ALMOST reach my goal by the time the baby comes, if she waits till her due date to be born. I don't have much time to call my own, not to plan calorie-counted menus like I did when I lost the weight before, and work out so much like I did before. But I did buy a lawn mower (not self-propelled), and have been doing quite a bit of mowing to help my husband have more free time for other projects around the farm. And I did order new walking shoes (first try they were too small, but next pair should be here in a day or two.) And I have made a HUGE dent in the gigantic overwhelming job I've been facing of clearing out the last room upstairs, downsizing my husband and self to just the first floor of our house. Still working on that project, but I now feel more hopeful about it because I made so much progress this past long weekend. Also, I connected with a wonderful lady who is helping me deal with all the difficult feelings I've been experiencing lately, especially about my daughter and son-in-law. I have to give God credit here, as after my friend prayed for me at our first meeting I found that my depression over my daughter really melted away, and I felt energized enough to accomplish all that work on clearing out the upstairs room. So I feel that I've taken some positive steps, and I just need to march forward now, eating less and choosing wisely and exercising more. I pray that this time I am in a place where I can actually pull all these things off!