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May Recap

Wednesday, June 01, 2016

I don't even know where to start... 2016 has been such a difficult year for so many people. Unfortunately, I didn't escape. My sweet baby Puccini died in my arms on May 19th. He was 16 years old. It happened overnight and was so unexpected. It broke my heart and I am working on healing.

I finally came to terms with that I had regained all the weight I had lost - and then some. There was a period of time at the beginning of this year that I was in full-on sabotage mode. It was a miserable experience. It didn't help that I was detoxing from my prescriptions cold-turkey (don't do this my friends). It was like I was daring myself to see how much weight I could gain. And because I'm a champ, I outdid myself.

I bought workout pants that fit and I bought a journal again... I've dubbed it my recovery journal. I have used it to record what I have eaten and drank each day as well as record any movement that I did. It's strange, being offline and accountable only to myself has been a blessing... it reminded me why I started blogging in the first place...before I had 70,000 views to my Spark page (holy bananas).

Long story short, I got more movement in one month than I have gotten collectively in the past year. I also ate in moderation and lost 6.6 pounds. It was a great, moderate start to getting back to where I was. Moderation is my goal this time... it's been very difficult not engaging in extreme behaviors (back in the day when I lost 12-20 pounds a month), but I don't want to have to do this again. Ever, ever ever.

I'm working on healing my soul at the lake. I only have another day, but am hoping for sun so I can take advantage of nature in its full glory. Missing my baby xo
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  • PJH2028
    SENDING YOU LOVE AND SOLIDARITY MY FRIEND.
    IF you'd like to support one another moving forward in time.... I'm here.
    paulajhoffman@gmail.com>p
    768 days ago
  • MOONFAIRY
    Sorry for your loss. Heartbreaking. emoticon
    868 days ago
  • TRENTDREAMER
    "My sweet baby Puccini died in my arms on May 19th. He was 16 years old. It happened overnight and was so unexpected. It broke my heart and I am working on healing. "
    * I am really sorry to hear. That totally sucks

    " It was a miserable experience. It didn't help that I was detoxing from my prescriptions cold-turkey (don't do this my friends). "
    * Noted

    "before I had 70,000 views to my Spark page (holy bananas). "
    * Wow. Congrats!

    "Long story short, I got more movement in one month than I have gotten collectively in the past year. I also ate in moderation and lost 6.6 pounds."
    * W00t!!1

    "it's been very difficult not engaging in extreme behaviors (back in the day when I lost 12-20 pounds a month), but I don't want to have to do this again. Ever, ever ever. "
    * Amen!!

    "I'm working on healing my soul at the lake. I only have another day, but am hoping for sun so I can take advantage of nature in its full glory. Missing my baby xo "
    * emoticon

    868 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/5/2016 8:28:08 PM
  • MONKEYSNUFFER
    Very sorry for your loss
    871 days ago
  • BRIAEL
    So very sorry to hear about Puccini's passing. It's NEVER easy to lose loved ones, and it can cause catastrophic nose dives in healthy habits. That you've managed to struggle through the grief and lose nearly 7 pounds is a testament to what you CAN achieve.

    Small steps, one day at a time. Gentle hugs!
    872 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    So sorry for the loss of Puccini, it is difficult time when they pass. In time you will have all the good memories of the good times. Congrats on the loss of the weight you have lost in May, and keep pushing to continue your journey. I believe that moderation is the key too sticking with the journey.
    872 days ago
  • MADEMCHE
    I am so sorry for your loss Paula. Here is to recovery, healing and small steps forward. Love and hugs.
    872 days ago
  • CAROKNITS
    My sympathies on the loss of your pet. It is good to hear from you!
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    872 days ago
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