The Dragon Warrior is down 4 pounds!
Wednesday, June 01, 2016
Ok... Ok, I know that four pounds does not seem that much. But it is a HUGE victory to me.
I have been struggling. I was doing this little dance between 165 & 170 for months. Then October came and the 20 pounds that I had previously lost plus some came. With them self doubt and self sabotage.
I was in a dark place. I let myself fall into despair. I hit the gym, but then I binged like there was no tomorrow.
It was only after I decided to change my attitude and made my "Kung Fu Panda" turn around that I began to see success again.
First I had to decided not to look in the mirror. Now, of course I put my make up on using the mirror. What I stopped doing was letting the image of my extra body define my potential.
Then I had to decide to be more disciplined in the food I was putting into my body. Food is fuel, but for me a real foodie it is also a delight. I had to make that clear chose that I was going to draw a line in the sand. I was not longer going to consume just to keep from being bored, or to bury my pain & suffering.
And then I had to remind myself that I am not giving up no matter how long it takes or how many times I fail.
After I felt that my prospective was improved. After I began to catch myself looking at the muscles in my arms and legs while I did class work at the gym. I decided to use a diet (Kaiser) I have had success with before to jump start myself back into weight loss mode. To be honest, I did well fallowing the diet. But, I cheated the last day and then over this pass weekend I did indulge in movie popcorn & soda...twice.
Here I am, not only with this shiny new attitude. But, four pounds down! Just think how much I could have lost if I had not eaten that popcorn or soda. LOL
I am a work in progress but I have new tools. I am going to ask myself when I feel the need to put something in my mouth. Am I eating because my body needs the fuel? Am I eating because we are celebrating? Or am I eating to fill a void?
When I look in the mirror and I see a few extra pounds I am going to remind myself that Yes, my body is part of me. But, it is only part of all the awesomeness that is me. Under my body I have built muscle and improved my health by going to the gym. But, also under my body is the heart & soul of a warrior.