June has arrived!
Wednesday, June 01, 2016
I love summer.... love, love, LOVE it! And of course each year it seems to take forever to arrive and is over in the blink of an eye. For me, summer usually starts sometime in May once the weather warms, and I drag it as far into September as I can. ;) Of course, this year we had a really chilly and rainy May, so I feel like I've already lost a few weeks of my summer.
I'm also a bit in disbelief that we have started month #6 of 2016. I was supposed to be at least 20 pounds lighter by now, maybe 30, and I'm only down 8 at my last weigh-in (which was prior to a rather rough weekend). So now I'm a bit afraid to step back on the scale, and I'm feeling more and more like a failure.
My plan yesterday got changed a bit... I was supposed to try the beginner's body weight workout to finally add in exercise to my new way of eating. Now, in my defense (ok, what my excuse was), it was my 8th wedding anniversary, and I frustratingly ended up working over an hour later than usual, and my hubby really didn't have time to go out for dinner (he's in a very demanding college program), so we ended up getting some Chipotle to go... and I did pretty good controlling my calories I'm happy to report. I was already exhausted thanks to staying up too late the night before, and that along with the extra long day at the office made me want to just melt into the couch.
Instead, my hubby said that we should take our dog for a walk. He's getting older and unfortunately due to our schedules, he spends a lot of time in the house alone. My pets are like my kids, and after losing 2 of my kitties less than a year apart, I feel the weight of making the most of every day they get. So we went for a nice walk even though we were both exhausted and my hubby still had a few hours of work to do before he could go to bed (and get up again at 4:00am).
Well, anyway... the day was not a total loss I guess. I also took a mini walk with a co-worker on our lunch break, so at least that's a drop in the bucket, right? I'm struggling to find my balance right now... in life, work, and with my weight/health. So I'm kinda all over the place. Maybe if I keep up with the blogging it will help me sort some things out. I'm really just talking to myself when I do this anyway... lol