Thursday, May 19, 2016
I have one pair of pants that I wear almost constantly. No, not really constantly, but A LOT. My "comfortable (fat)" pants. They are corduroy and are in a green that I love. A couple of weeks ago I noticed they were getting rather threadbare. And yesterday, they ripped. Right up the bottom. There are so few clothes I feel comfortable in. And that's no mystery-my clothes are too small. I HATE getting dressed because I HATE my clothes, I hate the way they look, what they are, etc.
When my pants ripped I almost cried. Because, what am I going to wear? Obviously I have to buy new clothes. Day before yesterday I was in a thrift store-killing time-and I was looking at books. And the book - "Flip the Switch" was there. $1.99. It's by Jim Karas who also wrote "Business Plan for the Body", a book that really inspired me when I lost weight about 12 years ago. So I bought it. I haven't made any proclamations to myself, but when I went grocery shopping I bought a lot of vegies, yogurt, lean meat.....I'm like Wow. Am I turning a corner here? What's going on? Perhaps rather than my mind, my body is leading the way?....