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Strong and Lean in 2016 - Wednesday, May 18th

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

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Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Well, the mindless beast appears to have gone back into hibernation... at least for today.. Hooray! I don't especially like those episodes when it raises its ugly head. I tried to reflect on what caused the problem yesterday and I came to the conclusion that it was thinking about my ex-husband. We were married 42 years ago today and thinking about it just stirs up a bunch of crazy emotions. I was married to my first husband for 11 years and that was about 10 years too long. On the positive side, I did get a beautiful daughter who means the World to me. My ex was a drinker, I'm sure an alcoholic (although he didn't think so) and was emotionally abusive. He is deceased now, so I shouldn't let these feelings still get to me; but they do. I was 18 when we got married and even though I was way too young I did have an inkling before we married that his behavior wasn't acceptable.

Here are a couple of photos that I dug up from the archives... one with my Dad (I love this photo!) and one with my two Grandmothers. One of my Grandmothers passed not long afterwards and this was my last photo with them.

Today, I did feel more in control and for that I am grateful. I did my normal 30 minute treadmill power walk and then after breakfast headed to the gym for Spin circuit. I had to leave a little early because my DH had a Doctor appt in Portland and I was going to have a badly needed hair cut/color while he was at his appt. I got home and he told me that we didn't have to hurry as his Dr appt was cancelled. He still needed to go to Portland however to get some materials he bought last week and planned to pick up today, so I didn't end up having to drive myself.. Yay!

emoticon Breakfast
Oatmeal with raisins, diced apple, brown sugar and almond milk
1/2 sliced apple with cinnamon
1/2 c mixed fruit

emoticon Morning Snack
Protein Shake with banana and almond milk
few almonds

emoticon Lunch
Avocado Omelette with sauteed veggies
Yogurt fluff with dollop of FF whip

emoticon Afternoon Snack
McDonalds Cone
Fresh Apple

emoticon Dinner
French Toast made with 1 egg and whites topped with banana and raspberries
SF Maple Syrup
Few potato chips

emoticon Evening Snack
3/4 c warmed applesauce with 1/4 c berries and dollop of FF whip

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    Anniversaries of life events can be so hard!
    You were a lovely girl, and I think you are even more lovely now.
    Glad you feel back in control, and your food looks yummy as always!
    1539 days ago
    What a lovely bride!

    And how marvellous you managed to figure out what was causing the distraction: and find something good about a painful past experience. Your dad, your grandmothers . . .

    Like you, I married (the first time) way too young. Sigh.

    And almost 37 years married to my current wonderful guy. Yup, he's permanent!!
    1539 days ago
    Hugs....lovely pictures....my one grandmother was hospitalized due to pancreatic cancer about 2 months after I got married and was deceased two months after that. Yep, treasure those pictures. So glad you got a beautiful daughter to bring some redemption to those 11 years and even more it makes the pictures you post of you and your husband now all the more precious for I see you enjoying life with him t which I'll give a hallelujah.
    1539 days ago
    I love the picture of you and your Dad. 18 is such a baby! But it doesn't seem like it when you are 18! I was the opposite. I didn't get married until I was 31. Your meals look so yummy. McDonalds cones are one of my "go to" desserts. They are small and don't trigger anything.
    1539 days ago
  • SEAGLASS1215
    Ditto what Carolyn said!

    1539 days ago
    Thanks for sharing the pic, which are lovely. Yes, eighteen is very young to get married, and it might have been hard at that age with any man, even a perfect one! Sorry you had to go through that, but I'm glad your story had a happy ending and you found a real prince afterwards. You seem to really enjoy life with your present hubby, who seems like such a sweetheart (preparing your breakfast, signing up for hard hikes with you, fixing things around the house). Things turned out so well!

    I'm sorry you've been feeling a little out of control, but your sharing it today reminded me that even people who've successfully lost weight and are incredible fitness enthusiasts sometimes struggle in the same way that those of us struggle who haven't yet made much visible progress. You are a good example, and thanks for this lesson!
    1539 days ago
    Lovely pictures!
    1540 days ago
  • ALYSSAR2012
    Beautiful wedding pictures! Glad you maintained your control despite those feelings. emoticon
    1540 days ago
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