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Reality Check

Saturday, May 07, 2016

Time for a reality check with myself. I am fat. I am overweight. This is my reality. I need to decide what I want to do about that.
Fact: I have been on Spark for SIX years and have not really lost any weight. Oh I would lose a pound or two and then gain it back again.
Fact: I have diabetes and am on insulin which can make it hard to lose weight.
Fact: I often feel that I have no control over this weight issue.
Fact: I am leader on some teams but I am not active on any of them any more.
Fact: I feel I am drifting through this and getting no where.
So what should I do? Do I give up? Do I fake it 'til I make it?
All I know is this can not continue. It is bad for my health. It is a bad example for my grandkids. It is getting me no where.
Fact: to lose weight, I have to eat less. Measure more. Stop the excuses.
Fact: to lose weight, I have to move more.
Fact: to lose weight, I have to eat more veggies.
Fact: to lose weight, I have to stop eating at night because I lose all control once I start.
Possible: I may need to leave some teams and join others - then become active to get the support I need.
Possible: I may need to keep the friends who support me on a regular basis and let the others go.
Fact: to get support, I need to give support. A smaller friend circle will help me do this. I need to think on this one.
Fact: I have started new spark streaks to help me do this.
I will lose 3 pounds for real this month.
Time to get REAL.
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  • KRYS210
    How are you doing? Know I am here if you ever need! emoticon
    1021 days ago
    The first step in moving forward is knowing where you are going. It sounds like you have that wrapped up. Keep up the good work. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one moment at a time!
    1025 days ago
    1035 days ago
    I can relate to everything you are saying. I am going through similar struggles. Have been on here many years, lost alot of weight & reached goal- but then I gained weight back. At first it was only a few pounds, but now (and for prob the last 1.5 - 2 yrs) has been between 15-20 pounds and I'm short- I'm only 5'3.5"- it doesn't look good at all. I feel terrible and know what I need to do and how to do it....but for some reason I can NOT seem to stay on track...do ok for a few days then I mess it up again....
    Don't feel alone. Alot of us seem to be struggling right now.
    I'm here for you :)
    We can do this! We know what to do- now we just have to do it! :)
    1040 days ago
    I could have just about written this blog myself as I am in the same boat! I have been so discouraged lately with my lack of progress I was about ready to just quit SP totally. But I know it works and I value the friendships I've developed with folks like you emoticon . So maybe I need to give myself a reality check. emoticon Great job on focusing on your current situation and finding a solution that works for you. Wishing you the very best with this new plan! I know you can do it!
    1048 days ago
    I know you'll be able to lose those 3 lbs. I have 5 lbs on my list because when I lose those 5 lbs I can start with a new goal of losing more weight. These last 5 lbs are tough, but the tracking everyday at least keeps me from gaining back weight.
    1049 days ago
    have decided to trim friends who were not active, either on the site or with me. usually only have 5 to 7 friends respond to friend feed on any one day. also decided to become active on my teams again. emoticon
    1049 days ago
    I feel the same way. Last winter I finally lost 16 lbs. then gained back 9. I finally decided that I had to be accountable to someone. That's the only way I've ever had luck losing weight. I joined a Diet Bet that started this week. So far, it's working. I've upped my steps, am tracking my food, and staying on plan. I lost a lot of weight when I first joined spark, but gained it all back plus more and could never really get anything to stick. I'm not getting any younger and I want to be able to age well and remain active so I figured I'd try something new.
    1049 days ago
    You can do it good luck
    1049 days ago
    I have faith in you that you will get this Nader control. I messed around with losing weight for several years until I was diagnosed prediabetic right before Christmas. All my doctor said was to lose weight before my May appt.. I went online and talked with a couple friends here on Spark that have the same problem and decided I would do this. I don't want diabetes. I'm sorry you are having such a struggle and will be glad to help in whatever way I can. I have lost 40 lbs since finding out, it is a challenge everyday!!!
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    1049 days ago
  • NECOE829
    You keep this attitude you can and you will do it ...Good luck:)
    1049 days ago
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