Turning Frustration to Movitvation
Sunday, May 01, 2016
I have been treating my body poorly the past few days. I have had at least one unhealthy meal a day since Friday. I used to become full of guilt and shame when I'd go overboard, and then give up on my goals. But not this time.
Backtrack to friday, I didn't see the scale move much lately. Became frusterated, full of self pity, and felt like throwing in the towel.
So I spent the weekend indulging on unhealthy crap. It didn't make me feel the temporary satisfaction I used to feel from overconsuming, but also didn't feel the huge guilt trip afterward. I don't feel like I'm in the grips of obsession and compulsion anymore. It feels as if a fog has lifted, it's all just choices, either one will have a consequence. It's totally up to me how I want to feel. The incredibly feeling of taking care of my body, eating healthy foods, pushing my body through exercise, taking time for myself and my needs. OR feeling physically and emotionally sick, pained, out of breath, stuck in self pity and sabotage my future.
I'll take the former.
So, it's a new month, new motivation, new outlook.
I'm writing my May menu today and going grocery shopping. I'm sticking with my plans, and I'll make it through this little funk. I had to take a step back and look at the big picture, what I want now vs what I want most. I know what I want, know what my goals are, and know how to achieve them. I'm recommited, remotivated, and ready to give it even more than I have been.