I Will Not Do This Again
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Admittedly, this is the first time I've had to work to lose weight and so I'm new to the whole psychology of it. Don't get me wrong, I've been on every diet and taken every pill/hoax out there but in retrospect, I didn't have any weight to lose.
I mostly did it because my friends and I would get together and talk about how fat we were, come up with a crazy plan to combat it and begin. None of us was fat. We would try things for a while and when it didn't work, quit. The only thing we all stuck to was the military diet, probably because it was 3 days, start to finish and we always lost weight on it. I'm guessing because we only had water weight to lose and that's basically what you lose on that diet.
I guess that's why I'm always floored when I see people here who have lost significant weight before and are here doing it again. I can't fathom this. I had to lose 30 lbs. I cannot believe, at my age, how hard that was. To truly HAVE to lose weight sucked. It was incredibly daunting and there were many days when I thought I just couldn't do it. I tried to convince myself I was OK fat. I wasn't too fat, I wasn't technically THAT overweight. At my heaviest, I was only 10 lbs over my ideal weight range. It was easy to convince myself that was acceptable.
I cannot imagine losing this and doing it again. Ever. I don't ever, ever, ever want to have to do this again. I have lost my last 10 lbs. (I need to update my profile) and I'm done. So done. Maintaining is a bazillion times easier than losing. I guess I can say that now since I finally had to work to lose. Even after each child, I just got it together and lost the weight. I gained exactly 25 lbs with each kid. The Dr. told me that's what I should gain and I did. It wasn't hard but I was young. Rolling into 50 changes the game, big time.
I vow I will not be here again losing weight. I like the community. I love the articles and info and videos, etc. but I will never be in the chats saying I gained this weight back. I'm writing this to remind myself if I gain even 5 lbs to get on it. I'm writing so I can reread exactly how hard this was and never have to do it again.