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Need to find a little focus

Monday, April 25, 2016

*WARNING* I'm in a foul mood, so if you're sick of hearing people complain on their blogs, skip mine.

I'm in a fog-brain, muddled, blah sort of state right now. Things aren't progressing how I'd like them to and I'm beyond frustrated with myself. I've told myself it's a marathon, not a sprint. And deep down, I know this. But I'm used to at least being able to set my own pace, and for now, that's out of my control and it's driving me crazy! I can't seem to get my head in the game! I'm still tracking (even when it's junk food), still drinking my water, and working very hard at rehabilitating my foot, but that's about it. I feel like I'm just going through the motions with everything else.

I tried an outside walk yesterday. I was so excited to be outside walking! Until I could only make it 18 minutes, at a SLOW pace (just over 1/2 mile in that time), and my foot was hurting so bad I had to wear my boot the rest of the day. And even then, any weight-bearing just about took me down. I just wanted to cry or scream or punch something! I'm so sick of this crap!!!!

I'm cranky and frustrated!

Oh well, I'll deal with it. It's not like I have a choice.

And another thing! I've had a freaking doughnut craving for WEEKS now and still haven't been able to have one! I have to have one soon or one will end up leading to one BOX! I'm not even that much of a doughnut person either! But once a craving takes hold, I ignore/combat it as long as I can, but at this point, it'll cause a binge if I don't get one. So sometime over then next couple days, I WILL get one lol.

If you read this and feel like I've been nothing but a negative Nancy, well...I DID warn you. lol
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  • ORCHIDLADY56
    It is so tough to deal with physical problems - especially when they impact your movement. Hope the last couple days have been better for you.
    1837 days ago
  • EMILYMAKES
    I hate having cranky days. Hope today is better.
    1839 days ago
  • BLACK_CANARY19
    I am cranky about 5 out of 7 days usually. I feel bad because I've been a terrible Diamond team mate and have been MIA from the group for a long time but I am gonna try and make up for it with my thoughts...you are an amazing person and you are strong and 100% capable of reaching all of your goals. I know your injury is really slowing you down but you need to think about what you CAN do and not what you CAN'T do. Focus on your food..get as much movement as you can without hurting yourself..keep on keeping on..take each day at a time. You WILL do this and get past this mood/injury. I believe in you!
    1839 days ago
  • KATELJM
    Amy, when I injured my foot, it seemed to take forever before I could be active again, and it made me cranky, too. It took a lot of self discipline to gently increase my activity, and I think foot soaks are important for me.

    As for carb cravings, in my experience I have them when I don't properly balance proteins with green veggies. I lean heavily on my "health habit" of my green protein smoothie in the morning to guarantee I get good fruit and kale in my system, and it fills me up past the doughnut "hour." When my diet becomes unbalanced, I swing back and forth between "salt" and "sweet" cravings. As long as I make a point to eat the foods that I need in my diet first, I am generally too full to pig out on miscellaneous carbs.

    Having said all that, I still allow myself to have a half cup of ice cream as my "fix."

    emoticon for still following through on your healthy habits, anyway. That is the mark of a winner: "Winners do things losers don't want to do." They may not feel like doing it, either, but they do it anyway to meet the long-term goal. Per Jim Ryun: "Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going."
    1839 days ago
  • RUNNER4LIFE08
    I feel for you... healing an injury is a tough course. It takes lots of patience and time. But when you are an active person that genuinely likes to workout, this can get very irritating and very very frustrating. I have been there and know how it feels and it may not seem like it now, but there is an end. Keep pushing through rehabilitation and getting that foot back to normal. It will come.

    And until then... big hugs because I do understand. And always feel free to vent away. It is good to get that off your chest.

    And girl... get yourself that donut! LOL! You are working through it and yay for you but there comes a point like you mentioned where you just have to treat yourself. Just make sure it is small but enough to satisfy. And then move back on to the healthy eats!
    1839 days ago
  • REDROBIN47
    Hang in there. We all go through this feeling of, "when it rains, it pours". Mine was a couple of weeks ago when my car, DH's truck and my oven all went to heck within 3 days of each other. Now, those things don't seem all that serious. Keep your chin up and keep on doing the best you can until your foot heals. Taking care of yourself is priority.

    emoticon ~Carol~
    1839 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10256529
    We all go through periods of feeling that nothing is going according to plan, and it is great to have a place to sound off. Up until a week ago, I had about four weeks where nothing was working out for me. I hit a plateau, gained six pounds, then things inside and outside of our house started tearing up, and other personal things almost made me lose it.

    I am happy to say that everything has worked out and I am finally focusing on my health once again. I have lost five of the six pounds I gained, and I am feeling somewhat more relaxed for the first time in over a month.

    Hang in there because everything will get better and those awful cravings will pass. Just remember, that you always have the community at Sparkpeople to share your feelings with.

    emoticon emoticon
    1839 days ago
  • JNICKEL2004
    It's ok I was cranky yesterday!! You.wil feel better soon.
    1839 days ago
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