Thank you to everyone for all your SparkGoodies and SparkPage comments praising my third year of maintaining my weight loss! My apologies for delaying my heartfelt gratitude for your ongoing support!
I continue to move forward in so many ways. One of my driving mantras continues to be from Mary Oliver: "Tell me: what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" With each year that passes this question becomes yet more poignant and pertinent.
With that in mind, each year for the past several years I've wrestled with the question: to FANY or not?!?! Bicycling Five hundred miles Across New York for a week, averaging 70-80 miles a day.
This year a fellow bike club member informed me that he was going and had plenty of room in his van. That was all I needed to get me moving. It was not a decision I made easily as I have had a baffling issue with a troughing out of my energy over the past few months. A few times a week I've run out of gas and felt very fatigued for reasons that continue to be puzzling. I've worked closely with my physicians and run through all the lab tests (including Magnesium & Vitamin D) and echocardiogram and everything has come out squeaky clean.
But "what am I going to do with this one wild & precious life?" !!! Will I be any more ready for this challenge next year? Or the year after? The time is NOW. The check was sent in a few weeks ago.
I continue with my workouts, some better than others, Some inexplicably draining. Just yesterday I was all jello-legged after a 30 minute bout on the elliptical. Crazy! There just is no explanation for this! I've made so many positive changes in my life and my stress levels are lower than they've been in a long time.
But today, I finally got out for my first jog of the year...in preparation for my one and only 5K. It's been a great day! I look off into the hills and sunny, blue skies and think: YES! I am UP for these challenges!
This song lifted me so MUCH today!
No tattoo, no new record (re: the lyrics), but the idea of re-making one's life, taking charge of and celebrating it and breaking open into a future that is open to such awesome potential...that's what I get from this song.
Into the Great Wide Open, Under The Skies of Blue...
Here's a bright spot which came up recently: Our bike club has a ride this weekend which is one of the club's favorite rides and I initially scratched my head wondering: Why haven't I ever done this ride before...? Then it dawned on me: This was a ride to a maple farm for a pancake breakfast with a room full of maple syrup drenched pancakes! I always turned down this ride because I did not want to put myself at risk of relapse into a sugar carbie funk!
But now I'm feeling so locked into my zero sugar, no processed carb approach to food that it's no longer a big risky deal to consider going on this ride: I'll just have my big bowl of awesome oats (old-fashioned oats, eggs scrambled into the mix, splenda, lots of cinnamon, raisins & walnuts) beforehand, bring a few apples along for more snacking and enjoy coffee and conversation with fellow bike club members.
Hopefully I won't experience the energy trough afterward that I've had with the few other rides I've done earlier this year. But I've gotta keep moving, gotta keep testing myself. As Wayne Dyer says: "Don't die with your music still inside of you!"
I will listen to my body and do the best that I can. I'm prepared, if I need to cancel the FANY ride if I cannot regain the fitness I need to nail it. But I'm going to keep at it and make the most of this years' cycling season.
Thank you again to all of you out there among my wonderful SparkFamily!
Keep the SPARK!