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Feeling weak - like I am going to give up

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

I know I need to breathe and relax, but my stress levels are through the roof. As I think about what to write that is causing my stress, I feel like one of Pavlov's dogs - I don't know which one to go to first. Work is rough - I can't find good people to hire (I am in commercial real estate and do the one thing (read leases) that most people don't enjoy. I can find people who can do it and will do an adequate job, but I need people who enjoy it because they will do a great job). Because I can't find good people, I have to turn business away. The stranglehold of my son's college decision is coming to a head. Fortunately, he has gotten in to outstanding schools. Unfortunately, there is no money at most, so because of money issues, he won't be able to go to his top choice, or second, or third. He is trying to put on a good show of making a really good state school his "top" choice, but that's not the case in reality. And, for the past year and a half, I have become a horrendous tightwad due (properly stated, an a55h**e) to the fact that I am trying to figure out how to scrape together the money for his top choice, and I am feeling the futility.
For only the second time since January, I "cheated" food wise on Sunday. By Sunday night, I was back and honest, and I was 100% yesterday. But, right now, I am feeling like I need to leave the office, scream, eat sh&&ty food and run away from my stresses - hopefully, out of the office before I scream like a madman.
Sorry about ranting. I thought it would help. It hasn't yet. Trying to stay strong.
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  • NUTSNUTSGETEM
    I appreciate the kind words and encouragement. He is exhausting all scholarship possibilities. While $250 here and there is awesome and will make a positive impact, it's a bit like spitting into the wind for Vanderbilt or Notre Dame or BU. Five weeks from now, the decision will have been made and I will deal with it one way or the other and at least that portion of the stress will be gone. It is going to be a matter of whether I can stay strong until then - when I derail, it is usually 12-18 months before I can pull myself back together.
    1942 days ago
  • ADARKARA
    I can understand the pressure you're under. We hired two new people in late December to replace a terrible employee, and somehow I'm working harder and am more stressed than I was when we had the terrible employee. My eating has suffered and thus my weight. I implore you to not give up, though. You're worth taking care of. You can't care for anyone else if you don't take care of yourself. Especially if you're stressed.

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    1943 days ago
  • AZMOMXTWO
    I pray for you to come to a peaceful place within yourself please feel free to rant it is a great way to release the stress
    1943 days ago
  • DAWNSUCCESS
    Hang in there. Rant away. Sometimes it's all we can do. You're working hard at solutions. You're doing the best you can.
    1943 days ago
  • NMUTT71
    He should definitely look into scholarships. There are often obscure scholarships out there that people don't even know about that he could apply for. The financial aid department at his high school or at his preferred college should be able to steer him in the right direction.
    1943 days ago
  • MNCYCLIST
    Hang in there...as my dad used to say, this too shall pass. And to be honest, having spent time in India, getting to choose among great schools (even state schools) is not so bad. If he studies well and applies himself, he'll be just fine at any school.

    Focus on what you can control, let go of what you can't, enjoy the simple things today.

    Not trying to be preachy...hope you have a good day.
    1943 days ago
  • KORRILCONGDON
    Pay off my credit debt. Its frustrating. And hard and we cant do much about. Find something to release stress. I like working out while listening to music reaaallly loud. Just find what works for you. You can do this. It will pass in time.
    1943 days ago
  • KORRILCONGDON
    Stay strong hun. I knowvits hard. I dont know exactly what your going through because thats not what I am going through. But, I am having a really hard time too. I need to get up money to pay the rest of my taxes and get up money for an agreement to
    1943 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    There are many scholarships out there that he should look into and see if he can get one. Sorry work is so stressful.
    1943 days ago
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