Hi guys! Beware, this a twisty-turny rambling blog of trying to figure out where I'm at right now.
So I've been on the scale twice since my 150-pound return to Spark Land (last week? I dunno; life is a blur) and first saw 146 and then, this morning, 142. Whaaaaaat? I have changed next to nothing so far -- more like just talking and thinking about it. So that doesn't seem possible! And therefore I am not willing to log it yet.
Then again I am back to feeling ravenous ALL THE TIME, so maybe I really am eating less. I've tracked only one full day of food (today) and I should hit just under 1,800 calories with dinner. So it's probably more like 1,900. (I didn't include my coffee, a handful of raisins that I may or may not have had - talk about mindless eating again! LOL - etc.)
So that's not as bad as I expected -- especially considering I am sure I was eating well over 2,500 calories while nursing. With NO exercise (except for baby rocking). Eeek! That's a far cry from the 1,400 to 1,600 I was used to! And I was biking 10 miles a day then. Good grief.
And technically I am still nursing! Just twice a day now, but I'm guessing that still involves a small amount of extra calories.
I cannot even decide what all this means right now.
If the scale really is already showing my minimal efforts at being more mindful again, great! But I am huuuuuungry (dang, I forgot how awful and all-consuming that is!) and it seems like I am really going to struggle once little man gives up the breast milk for good.
Of course it doesn't matter. I'll just have to get back on track, return to my hard-earned good habits and keep trudging along. I guess I was just in the mood to analyze. And just ... participate again with a blog!
My little man took a couple of steps this week! Teeny tiny baby ones, but it's still exciting. And hey. maybe that means I'll automatically be getting some more movement in soon!