Wednesday, March 23, 2016
I have a confession to make. A really big one. My eating plan has been out of control for the past 3 weeks or so. I have been gorging on fast food for lunch at work, sneaking candy bars and sweets whenever I can. I've even hidden junk food from my hubby cuz I was afraid he would get to it before I did.
And how does this make me feel? Disgusted with myself for eating so poorly, disappointed with myself for treating my body, the only one I get, so badly.
So what brought this moment of honesty to light for me? I truly don't like myself at this moment. I have been struggling in many areas of my life lately and have turned to food for comfort. I am feeling like a failure in life in general right now and I can't seem control myself where food is concerned.
So here I am pouring it all out there to purge myself of these feelings. Putting them out there in the sparkiverse and out of my head. I deserve to treat myself better than this. I am going to focus on my positive attributes instead of beating myself up over every negative thing I do to myself or say to myself.
I am going to turn this big negative into an even bigger positive. I will work on the areas of my life that are not going well right now. I will begin to make small changes in my eating habits. I am going to treat myself like I would treat a good friend going through a rough time. I' am going to give myself some love.