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Confession time

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

I have a confession to make. A really big one. My eating plan has been out of control for the past 3 weeks or so. I have been gorging on fast food for lunch at work, sneaking candy bars and sweets whenever I can. I've even hidden junk food from my hubby cuz I was afraid he would get to it before I did.

And how does this make me feel? Disgusted with myself for eating so poorly, disappointed with myself for treating my body, the only one I get, so badly.

So what brought this moment of honesty to light for me? I truly don't like myself at this moment. I have been struggling in many areas of my life lately and have turned to food for comfort. I am feeling like a failure in life in general right now and I can't seem control myself where food is concerned.

So here I am pouring it all out there to purge myself of these feelings. Putting them out there in the sparkiverse and out of my head. I deserve to treat myself better than this. I am going to focus on my positive attributes instead of beating myself up over every negative thing I do to myself or say to myself.

I am going to turn this big negative into an even bigger positive. I will work on the areas of my life that are not going well right now. I will begin to make small changes in my eating habits. I am going to treat myself like I would treat a good friend going through a rough time. I' am going to give myself some love.
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  • ONEKIDSMOM
    That's the way: treat yourself like you would your best friend, with kindness and compassion. Give yourself some "treats" that are not food, as a reward for your decision... breathe, hug yourself, and step forward! emoticon
    817 days ago
  • KG4PVOWIFE
    Congrats on putting your feelings out here. This is truly the time to focus on what you CAN control. And only that.
    818 days ago
  • TARANTINO225
    You are definitely not a failure. Everyone has moments of weakness that they look back on and are not happy with. Noticing where your problem areas are is a huge thing. You can definitely make the change in your nutrition. You've got this girl!
    818 days ago
  • LIGHTKEEPER77
    I struggle with binge eating disorder, depression, and anxiety, so I get it. I've gone through times where I feel like I "can't get off the crazy train," as I call it.

    I'm glad you are making the decision to give yourself love.

    What else can you do to take a step in the right direction?

    Do you need outside support?

    Keep pushing...and posting...

    emoticon



    818 days ago
  • MTN_KITTEN
    Dust yourself off ... and get back to taking care of yourself.
    819 days ago
  • HIMELISSA2007
    Sorry about your rough time. Ive been there. Give yourself a little slack and the habits will change. Dont be so hard on yourself. Youre a loveable wonderful person. You can do whatever you heart desires. Its ok not to be perfect. Hang in there it will get better. We are here to support you. emoticon
    819 days ago
  • JENSTRESS
    Ugh, I had a rough binge-type day yesterday too. You can do this. Learn from it and start over.
    819 days ago
  • P42016
    You can do this!!! Start with one good decision at a time. I've been caught in this cycle many times and it takes at least 10 days of clean eating to fully pull yourself out of this and out of the cravings. You are worth it! emoticon
    819 days ago
  • NHES220
    Thanks for your honesty and you are right, you deserve to treat yourself better. You are not a failure, not one is a failure unless they quit trying. The fact that you are here blogging about it means you have not given up. You have hit a rough spot and you want to turn it around. We are all here pulling for you. Food is something a lot of us have turned to for comfort. Think about what else you can turn to. Is there someone you can talk to? Drink a nice cup of tea? Go for a walk? Some other distraction? Check back in with us and let us know how you are doing!
    Noreen

    819 days ago
  • GEORGE815
    You can do it!
    819 days ago
  • BAMBI0126
    First off you are not a failure! Stuff happens and you can pick yourself up and get going again. Just from what you said I know you can do it! Baby steps are great. And you have a great attitude. Remember you are always aloud a cheat day. Sending luv
    819 days ago
  • REGINAROLLINS
    We all do it, sooner or latter!!!
    819 days ago
  • PATSYNC
    Start off slowly...you can do it.
    819 days ago
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