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So what's my deal today?

Friday, March 11, 2016

Ok, so yesterday I turned 51. I own it. emoticon
My daughter said, "so you're 39?" I said no way! I'm fifty-onederful!
She fell out loving that! emoticon

emoticon So my deal today is... do I have some sort of bi-polar disorder? I've been reading about bipolar 2. Hmmm... sounds a lot like me. I hadn't even heard of bipolar 2 before, until today, googling some of my issues.

Oh... let me say this up front... I'm not on meds right now. emoticon I weaned myself off of meds I'd been taking for a year beginning in January this year. (Mostly an insurance issue, plus other stuff) anyhow.. I just thought that y'all might wonder. :)

Ok, I have these bouts of feeling really UP. Brainstorming plans to do this, that, lose weight, clean house, exercise, create, I feel so excited at the idea of getting my shyte together!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
.... but... then I will flip and have bouts of feeling extremely down emoticon emoticon emoticon . Anything I've shared during my "up" time I feel like I need to delete... actually I even toy with the idea of just exiting the whole social media thing because my brain is telling me No One Gives a Crap about your personal issues emoticon ... then I'll start feeling up again, ain't no reason why, perhaps something I read or saw... emoticon emoticon and all this can happen over the course of ONE day! emoticon

It makes me feel so scatterbrained.
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    I have been on a lower level than usual lately. Sometimes I think the craziness of the world gets to us...even if only subliminally we KNOW something is totally out of whack out there. Also many people are sensitive to hydrostatic pressure or full moons which makes sense since we are something like 96% water...or something like that.

    I agree you are probably hormonally out of whack and could use some assistance in that department to make you feel more balanced. I still have to get my blood tests done so that I can start bio-identical hormone treatment. I am hoping that might help me feel more balanced and happier day to day.

    Hugs to you dear one...never ever feel bad about sharing yourself with your sparky friends...we ALL care for you and want only the best life possible for you to enjoy! emoticon
    1002 days ago
    Sweeite, I'm here with you. I'm in the same boat and I'll help you row if you let me.
    1007 days ago
    we are here for you.... maybe you need to see a doctor just to make sure nothing is going on ......but we all experience highs and lows nothing to be ashamed of ! And we DO care emoticon emoticon

    Hope you had a very nice Birthday!
    1008 days ago
    Highs and lows are definitely within the normal range of human experience, especially near a big milestone like a birthday, but the severity of your discomfort is what matters here. Do you have the option of connecting with support right now? We definitely care and would miss you if you went away. Wishing you relief.
    1008 days ago
    Oh honey, I think we can all be bipolar at times. I think that comes along with being a female. If you really think you might be though you need to see a doctor about it.

    I'm so very sorry for not sending you a card for your birthday! I knew your birthday was this month but just totally and completely forgot to check to see when it was.

    PLEASE, PLEASE, don't ever think we don't care about you!! I very much care about you and would be so incredibly sad, not to mention lost, if you left SP!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

    I mean every word of what I said! emoticon emoticon emoticon my beautiful friend!!
    1008 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    Self-diagnosis in something like this is dangerous. If you are really concerned, you need to see your doctor.

    People do care about you, issues and all. Up or down, you are a great person.
    1008 days ago
    But think how boring it would be if you never had any highs or lows! We all need to have the highs so we can think about the things we could do, we might do, we want to do. And we need the lows to bring us back down to what we can do, what we will do.

    Sounds pretty normal to me.
    1008 days ago
  • HUMMER65
    All sounds pretty normal! Many of us experience similar feelings, Be careful with Dr Google and self diagnosis, but if you are concerned, then your MD is the one to see! emoticon

    PS- most important- Happy Belated Birthday! emoticon
    1009 days ago

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    1009 days ago
    My 21 day new member challenge for today was about moderation in all things. I think of that up and down thing you are talking about as more of a perfectionist thing than a bipolar thing. The perfectionist / planner in me loves to make goals, and action plans on how to get there, and the human part of me can never live up to the perfectionists lofty aspirations.

    The article "Moderation in all Things" here on sparkpeople really spoke to me today. Particularly the sentence,

    "At a deeper level, moderation is a commitment to balance and wholeness."

    At the core of our being, isn't that really what we are striving for? To live a balanced life, nourishing all of the varied facets of ourselves? If you get a chance, check out the article, it might help.

    1009 days ago
    We are here for you emoticon I would say it is Menopause,but
    I am no Dr. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1009 days ago
    Oh, is that bipolar!?! I just think of it as being my normal. HaHa ;)
    1009 days ago
    Too funnt
    1009 days ago
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