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Today is important...

Wednesday, March 09, 2016

Every day is important. I know that. I simply mean, in regards to my health, this day is important. Today is day 3 of my streak....this is where I've been falling off lately. I NEED to make it past this day and meet my goals. Today I am going to drink 64 oz of water, and exercise 10 minutes. It isn't much, I know this. I do not care. I KNOW this is what got me going before and it will get me going again. I'm not too worried about my diet at the moment, that will come later. Although I do have a healthy lunch rather than a lunch meat sandwich. I probably won't it great today, it's dinner day, and is what it is. It is currently more important for me to start exercising regularly.

I am going to Florida in May, and it would be lovely not to feel bloated when I go. This is not my motivation for getting back on track, but it will be a nice bonus.

And a quick story for you. This morning my boyfriend dropped his phone in the bathtub and fried it. It's an extra phone that he uses for pictures and music. Then after he left for work he called me about 15 minutes later and said he had a flat tire. Poor guy. He was so nice and calm was wonderful to see how he reacts to stuff like that. The only thing he said was "I knew something was bound to happen since everything has been going right lately" and in response to me telling him he should have stayed in bed "no $hit". Never any anger. It was a novelty to me, and I realized how a negative person can impact your life and you don't even realize it. I mean, just because he was having a rough day didn't mean he had to make mine rough as well. For years I listened to my ex husband yell at drivers when I was on the phone with him on the way home from work, or yell if something got spilled. Don't get me wrong. I would have lived with all that, because I loved him. Life really wasn't horrible with him, but he did get angry a lot, I never realized that till now. He never hurt me or Gibson, please don't talk about how horrible he was, that's not the case. But angry a lot. And maybe, I'm realizing as I type this, it was because he was miserable....he didn't love me and maybe that made him someone he didn't want to be. It doesn't make it any easier, but maybe I can understand it more now.
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  • RR1_RR1
    Your new boyfriend sounds positive for sure. Def nicer to be around people like that than angry people!
    1110 days ago
    Glad you're surrounded with more positive energy now! You're the best!

    1117 days ago
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    1129 days ago
    Aww, this made me happy and sad to read. I'm so happy you have found someone nice, but sad to read that your husband was the angry type. Has he changed into a peaceful person now? Perhaps that's just the way he deals with things. Xx miss you! X
    1139 days ago
    You got this...I am right behind you pushing you ...hang in there..
    1140 days ago
    emoticon Love yourself enough to know it's NOT your fault if someone else stops. His loss. You ARE beautiful and you CAN choose to be good to yourself .
    1141 days ago
    Congrats on day2 accomplishments. As you continue forward is this process you know it never gets "simple" just a bit easier. Glad to see you back on and more active in all ways!! Keep up the hard work!
    1142 days ago
    Kind of amazing how you learn little things that make your life so much better.

    I do want to say one thing. Your husband DID love you. He wouldn't have married you otherwise. He wouldn't have wanted to have children, people can find misery in so many areas. MAYBE your marriage wasn't perfect, but he did love you at one time. Unfortunately, maybe he just stopped working at the love, and looked elsewhere. (Maybe not!) I just know that so many men say that, and it isn't true, it just is them in the moment. If every man that said that while divorcing his wife was telling the truth, then love never existed. Because pretty much everyone says it.

    You can do this streak. I know it. And it doesn't matter if you aren't perfect yet. You are doing what you are doing! I'm NEVER perfect. I do really well most days, SURE, but perfection, meh. You need to start with whatever is what starts a habit for you. It can be a bunch of small steps that lead to big change or a ton of stops right away. It doesn't matter, so long as it is what works for you! I had always thought it overwhelmed me to start worrying about what I ate AND working out so I always did one first, then the other. (usually eating) but I have learned it doesn't matter what you do, so long as it works for you.
    1142 days ago
    You have got this! The victory of 3 days in a row will be yours before you sleep tonight! emoticon
    1142 days ago
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