Doomed to repeat history...

Monday, February 22, 2016

I have a bad habit of using Spark for a while, then disappearing. It's been over a year since I last logged in, and I thought I'd look at some past blogs... here are some highlights from my first blog in May of 2011...

-I can't believe I allowed myself to become so lazy and put on this weight.
-I'm still bitter about gaining almost 30 pounds in the months before my wedding.
-I'm uncomfortable in anything that isn't loose jeans and a loose top.
-I have a closet overflowing with cute, trendy clothes that I can't even squeeze into
-The worst part? I think... no, I KNOW it wouldn't take much to get my weight back down.
-I snack on anything I can get my hands on like a grazing cow.
-Instead of working out, even for 15 - 20 minutes, I make excuses...
-I am wasting time that I could be feeling amazing and being healthy
-I have high cholesterol
-I'm waiting to have kids until my early 30's
-I have a high risk of cancer and diabetes.

And here I am AGAIN, nearly 5 YEARS since this post... and I'm exactly where I was then. Same thoughts, same problems, same overflowing closet, same excuses. Except now I'm IN my early 30's (will be 32 in 2 months), and obviously haven't learned anything from my history. And as the saying goes, I am doomed to repeat it.

So... I guess I need to see that the wishful thinking, waiting for some magic motivation, making excuses, and starting "tomorrow" just won't work.

I do know that tracking my food helps. A lot. The one time a few years ago that I managed to lose 20 pounds was all thanks to calorie counting and lots of healthy foods (read, veggies!). Plus drinking lots of water. So there are 2 tools I know I need to use.

The thing I struggle with most, and is probably the thing I need to really get me out of this cycle, is exercise. I'm a collector...I have countless DVD's, I've printed dozens of workout plans, I have various workout equipment... but sadly none of it works unless you actually USE it.

I actually started a weight loss challenge with a few other ladies here at my new office (moved last fall), but sadly we're all struggling, and more sadly I'm the most positive of us. I've lost a little weight since we started at the beginning of January, but I'm already slipping up with my food tracking (if I eat poorly I just don't track anything), and gained for the first time since starting the challenge.

So, I am getting back on track with my food tracking, and commit to track even bad choices that make me go over my goal. I will also plan to work out at least 3 times this week, and will stay off the couch until at least 8pm. Time to change my future!
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  • ANGEL_789
    Thank you all for the encouraging comments! One of the best parts about spark is knowing I'm not alone! Planning to start back up with logging and blogging :) We can do this!
    1155 days ago
  • no profile photo SHORTSTORY2
    Been there, done that as the saying goes. Just make today your new start! Don't expect great and wonderful things at the start. To lose weight and keep it off requires a life style change. Just take it slowly. Best thing to do is rid the house of temptations. Get healthy choices on hand. When the snack demons come to call get busy with something. Drink a glass of water. It does help some. Check out the work out videos on here too. Top of the page under Articles and Videos. They are short and so many different ones to choose from. Baby steps to success! Best wishes to you!
    1155 days ago
    Hugs! One day at a time!
    1155 days ago
  • JEN0719
    Did you write this about me? I feel exactly the same way. I don't have a lot to.lose but I just cannot stick with it. It's so frustrating... and embarrassing too.
    1155 days ago
    Theta a really good article today called The Buck Stops Here that deals with accountability. At least you're back at it! Never give up! Set little goals first and when you reach them it will inspire you to reach bigger ones! Best wishes :)
    1155 days ago
    I agree and am back after about a year and more weight gained and I was doing so well. Got a holiday booked so that's my first target point to aim for. Keep up the positivity cxc
    1155 days ago
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