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Thursday, February 18, 2016

Continuing my WSL blog series...

What is normal?
I'm not sure I can answer that easily - yet.

I can suggest a few things I don't feel are normal:
- bingeing
- eating only a few foods
- eating mindlessly

Ok, so I don't exactly feel like I'm eating normally yet. Not sure I will ever get there automatically, but I am trying.

Since my WLS, I've been eating very limited foods, in very limited quantities. I'm not sure I've had a day without a protein shake. But I'm down to one a day, as breakfast. For weeks I've been eating soft foods, and limiting fibrous foods.

Lately, I've been eating just about anything. Almost. I'm still not having any soda or alcohol at all. And I have not had rice yet. But I think I've had just about everything else that I used to enjoy. In smaller quantities.

This may or may not be a good thing. I confess to be really worried about getting back to my old ways. Over the holidays, I was able to eat enough cookies to gain a little weight. Maybe it's a good thing that this alarmed me. Maybe I'm on guard now. Or maybe it's just the start of heading down that slippery slope.

I'm going to fight to be "normal" without reverting to my old ways. I may need to remind myself daily what I'm fighting for, but if that's what it takes, that's what I'll do. I don't want to disappoint myself ever again!

I can do this. And so can you!

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Note: it doesn't take 3500 calories for me to gain. I think I had 3 or 4 medium sized cookies over the course of a day to gain half a pound.
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