Post 5: Fear of regaining
Sunday, February 14, 2016
For some time now I have been putting a lot of effort in educating myself about weight maintenance. Even the most optimistic statistics are quite discouraging, as they show that the vast majority of people who lose weight regain at least some of the weight, and many times even more than they lost.
When it comes to personal accounts of how difficult maintenance is, I have a "favourite" trilogy:
"The Fat Trap" which I referred to in my first post www.nytimes.com/2012/01/
"The Unfarness of Weight Loss Maintenance" justmaintaining.com/2010
and "I Once Was Obese" www.slate.com/articles/d
I have read these texts several times to remind myself that I can't lose focus once the time comes to maintain, and that time is now quite close. From the experience I've gained in the last 8 months, I know that it doesn't take too much for me to regain and I dread the day when I don't have as much time to exercise or prepare my meals with the nearly mathematical precision I do now. I have learned to fit my macro and micro (this is tricky!) nutrient needs within my caloric range, to vary my workouts and include cardio, strength and flexibility (another "sacred" trilogy), to learn what a healthy portion is for me and to weigh my food whenever possible. Come to think of it, it is a lot of work. As one of the authors above says, its' a part-time and often full-time job.
My greatest concerns are potential changes in my daily routines. The reason why I have been able to make these changes now is because at the moment I am a full-time doctoral student with pretty much total control of my schedule. I work from home a lot, almost never need to eat out and when I do it is usually planned and I already know the caloric/nutritional value of what I am going to get. I do get up at 6.30 to go the gym or the pool every day and prepare my next day meals every night, and some times when I just can't find time to workout because of seminars or other activities, I use YouTube videos to exercise. In other words, I am developing some skills that will help me cope when, unavoidably, I have to return to the crazy working market. I'm scared: before starting my PhD I had an administrative post and a teaching job at a university, and these occupations were so demanding that I would usually work 12 hours a day and then go home to mark exams and essays.
Rationally, I know that something can always be done. That there is always a way to prioritise what you choose. Emotionally, I am scared to death.